Well looks like life has thrown me another shit storm.
So this weeks been a hard one. I had one of my dumbass brides tell me when I ran into her at Safeway that she moved the wedding to August 2013 and her and her fiance never informed me. Worst part.. Ive passed up three weddings on August 18th in the past month. I asked her when she knew they switched the date and she said since Feb and her fiance was suppose to contact me. I have the deposit but I'm a little put out with the fact they have known so long and failed to inform me. I could of had that date filled and hopefully I still can.
So my mother called me to let me know that a friend died this week. That is #2 for me this month. Strange thing is this one suffered addictions as well and his addiction got the best of him. It's so hard when someone's life is taken from an overdose. I have more lives lost then every finger and toe on my body. I'm starting to lose faith in my life and feel like I need to take a break. I work 7 days a week and my emotions are starting to get the best of me. I cry alone every day, suffer from severe migraines now at least once a week and I struggle with anxiety like you would not believe. What makes things worse is my wedding is stressing me out so much I don't even want to get married anymore.
Does anyone have any tips that can help me with these things?
So this weeks been a hard one. I had one of my dumbass brides tell me when I ran into her at Safeway that she moved the wedding to August 2013 and her and her fiance never informed me. Worst part.. Ive passed up three weddings on August 18th in the past month. I asked her when she knew they switched the date and she said since Feb and her fiance was suppose to contact me. I have the deposit but I'm a little put out with the fact they have known so long and failed to inform me. I could of had that date filled and hopefully I still can.
So my mother called me to let me know that a friend died this week. That is #2 for me this month. Strange thing is this one suffered addictions as well and his addiction got the best of him. It's so hard when someone's life is taken from an overdose. I have more lives lost then every finger and toe on my body. I'm starting to lose faith in my life and feel like I need to take a break. I work 7 days a week and my emotions are starting to get the best of me. I cry alone every day, suffer from severe migraines now at least once a week and I struggle with anxiety like you would not believe. What makes things worse is my wedding is stressing me out so much I don't even want to get married anymore.
Does anyone have any tips that can help me with these things?
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kelpie_:
Tragedy really has touched you. I hope that you can find a peace with it...I guess it depends on your beliefs about death/afterlife. Whatever happens, I hope that you can have peace. Oh, and clients who don't act like little spoiled bitches.
anjave:
When I get anxious, I have a breathing exercise I do, that is if I recall at the time. Ask your general practitioner about it, it may help.