so I am WAY buzzing right now so sorry if there's a grip of typos.
basically. planned a barbeque tonight. only one *other* person showed up as opposed to the 20 some invited.....
including nikki. no she didn't come. but she did call me up which made me feel so much better that at least she cared. later we went and played pool... man she's so awesome.. I want to wrap my arms around her kiss her all night long just hold her soft body in my arms.
anyhow after pool went to carlos' house alcohol... get fucking faded playing this card/drinking game called asshole. I had 5 beers.... POUNDED the first 2.
lets just say nikki was not as drunk.
I was being TOTALLY honest with her tonight though.
the only thing I didn't get to say is how much I REALLY love her.
I cried tonight... I wish I would have started crying before though so she could see me before she left...
she made me cry ... I walked her out to her car... told her I care and be safe and stuff. I only wanted a hug, I would have kissed her I'm not sure where but I would have. slap or not. I want her to know I love her. but no luck no hug... barely even a "goodbye/see you tomorrow" I really REALLY love this girl... how can you tell someone who dosen't even fucking like you that you love her?
you can't. I started to sob.... I just wanted into her arms for all of 5 seconds. :'( I just want to kiss her I just want to hug her. and tell her I can't stop loving her.even if I try....... it's pointless.
Nikki, I love you. and taht is that. kiss me, hold me, show me that you share my feelings... please?
basically. planned a barbeque tonight. only one *other* person showed up as opposed to the 20 some invited.....
including nikki. no she didn't come. but she did call me up which made me feel so much better that at least she cared. later we went and played pool... man she's so awesome.. I want to wrap my arms around her kiss her all night long just hold her soft body in my arms.
anyhow after pool went to carlos' house alcohol... get fucking faded playing this card/drinking game called asshole. I had 5 beers.... POUNDED the first 2.
lets just say nikki was not as drunk.
I was being TOTALLY honest with her tonight though.
the only thing I didn't get to say is how much I REALLY love her.
I cried tonight... I wish I would have started crying before though so she could see me before she left...
she made me cry ... I walked her out to her car... told her I care and be safe and stuff. I only wanted a hug, I would have kissed her I'm not sure where but I would have. slap or not. I want her to know I love her. but no luck no hug... barely even a "goodbye/see you tomorrow" I really REALLY love this girl... how can you tell someone who dosen't even fucking like you that you love her?
you can't. I started to sob.... I just wanted into her arms for all of 5 seconds. :'( I just want to kiss her I just want to hug her. and tell her I can't stop loving her.even if I try....... it's pointless.
Nikki, I love you. and taht is that. kiss me, hold me, show me that you share my feelings... please?
morgan:
samwise is also COMPLETELY IN LOVE with frodo.
edea:
right on Morgan!
