hazie

hmmm watching tv... there's alot of stupid things on TV. I mean aside from "american idol" "married by america" hell any "reality tv show" at all is just absolute crap. there's good things on tv too but looks like I'm in a semi negative mood. I was talking to some Sg models earlier. which made me happy... really! it's so neat that we ("the subscribers") are allowed to actually try and converse with the models.... I mean I was watching this thing on TV I guess it was america's most wanted. and it was about all these obsessive compulsives.... like serial killers and rapists and sexual predators and stuff.... and I mean .... well I'm sure the SG models here get put up on pedastels here by lots of members... hell I do it.... I will even admit that I think it'd be neat to meet and hang out with them as normal people not on the whole SG level of things. but just as a friends. or something only cause I would like to have friends like these but well I am very intimidated and nervouse and yea... even if people like the people on here lived around me It'd still be hard... anyhow I just think wow it's kind of scary I mean someone like that could come after anyone really...... and like get obsessed and become a stalker I dunno I'm just tripping out I guess...

avoiding my current feelings of wonder.
as in I was talking to this girl and she was laughing I think and yea it was nice and it made me happy to at least feel like I was making her smile... but then she was all "brb" and hasn't came back for an hour... I know she's busy... but I just have bad experiances with that... particularily with nikki.... people flake on me and it just sucks.... if you don't want to do something, be it talking, hanging out or whatever say so! be honest ... and blunt.... I don't care It might hurt but at least I wont wonder. y'know?

anyhow I kinda got side tracked... back to crap on tv.... and just stupid things feel free to spout off about stupid things you notice in everyday life! thanks!