hazelscum134

Youve consumed my life with pasions of destroying me. everytime I see you, everytime I smell you, with every breath of you I take, I want to kill myself but not like that. Drunk I go crawling back for just one more fix, I tell myself it doesn't mean anything, I don't love you, I don't want you in my life. thats right my life, well atleast thats what they tell me. the way i feel when you feel my lungs is...

I feel week, betrayed, lied to, Cool I ask myself? No decaying is more like it, rotting from the inside out. But I'm cool. Atleast thats what my mommy tells me, cool and special. So what I rode the short bus, we all rode a short bus. duh. So next time you try and pigeon hole me with my own guilt, remember they aren't toxic only she is.

so before I go blaming you for everything wrong in my life, I would like to thank you for the endless amount of money you've wasted on my being cool or bad ass if you will. I would like to thank you for helping me find out that your the last thing I want in my life at this point, I want to thank you for helping me take control of my own life.

Now if I could only quit smoking cigarettes.

rambles of after work vent session