haysey

I have no idea whats wrong with me now,
i'm beginning to get depressed too fucking often, and it's not the normal feeling sorry for myself stuff, i really don't wanna be here!

I'm getting to the stage where all i want is to be left alone and live out my life in some shitty flat in a dead end job...and i'm looking forward to it.
The problem is i think i'm too far gone for myself or anyone else to drag me out of it,
since i gave up of relationships i seem to be given up on life,
the only thing that really makes me happy is music.
I've tried drawing and it doesn't work anymore!

I want the old days back,
before i even had a gf,
before i started drinking,
before all the fucking debt,
when i was 19 and all i had in life was my room, my drawings, and my music.
And my only problem was what graphic novel to buy this week!

Everything was great,
my job was fun,
i didn't need to bother with a social life,
and i didn't feel this way because of her!

I'm blaming her for this,
ever since her my life has been fucked!
I couldn't draw,
i stopped watching anime,
i started drinking,
and i forgot who i was!

...sorry if i went on too long,
but i needed to say it.