"GRAPHIC ERASER"
"How do I know when I have written something too graphic,
Should I be concerned about a demographic?
Maybe I should hit backspace,
Maybe this I should erase.
I question everything I write,
Honestly, it is out of fright.
Fright or fear,
Should I write linear?
Maybe this is not good,
I do not have confidence when I should.
I love everything I write,
But is publishing this going to be alright?
Will it cause hate?
Fuck now I cannot concentrate.
Anxiety is on the rise,
But what if I won the noble prize?
What if what I write does not suck,
What if really I am just stuck?
I wish I knew if I wrote well,
That would be really fucking swell.
I hope what I write others love too,
That they love what I write as much as I do.
So why is it I have self-doubt,
What is this truly all about?
There is a problem inside my mind,
It surely is one of a kind.
I keep getting in my own way,
I do it every single day.
Self-doubt is my middle name,
Self-sabotage is my fucking game.
Self-sabotage will destroy,
Destroy everything I did once enjoy.
I do not want to start again,
So I will pick up my pen.
I will write away the mental wall,
Maybe ill go to the mall.
But I want to write I said,
As I lay upon my bed.
I suffer from Panic Disorder,
I also need to have my order.
The order required by my OCD,
Must be kept by only me.
I want to restart my whole story,
Is it too graphic but not gory?
My story fits several genres,
Creativity screams nothing will stop us!
But is it good?
I may never know."
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