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Step. On. Me.
I found this today. it made me really sad.


you win.
I cared.
too much.

I realized today.
how our whole lives we spend our time searching.
searching for what we think will make us happy.
but when we strive and struggle to get to the thing that is supposed to make us happy.
it never does.
it's never what you expect.

you revolve your whole world.
your whole life.
around one goal.
one dream.
then you end up.
old. alone. sad. full of regret.
becauz you then realize.
it's never what you wanted to begin with.

but you were to scared.
to frightened of what may happen.
to just be you.
and even if now.
you think you're you.
you're not really.
you're just a clever imitation of what society accepts as you.

even your memories.
they're tainted.
"remember when?"
some one else completly alters your memory.

so basically.
coming down to it.
nothing you do matters.
nothing you say matters.
nothing matters.

get it?

there is no hope.
there's no such thing as heaven. or hell.
you live you die.
but no one wants to believe that.
because it's so hopless.
so pointless.
but I get it now.

you live once.
you die.
and its over.

gone gone so long.

there are only two things in this world that are real
love. and fear.

you either live in love.
or you live in fear.

I know I live in fear I admit it.
I'm afraid of life.
of being happy.
of feeling.

but thats just me.

-Stephanie ***