havokinblack

Ok i'm back to 2 weeks ago again even tho i have fallen in love with someone else. i feel like shit for ruining her life again. I just love that i have morrow off i have to tidy the house and i'll be drinking booze and crying over stupidness. over a miniture killing thing love a love had a love lost from my missdirection. a love that was magnificant that was full of fun but the shit that came this last week i couldn't handle. I fucking cooked a nice meal and she didn't even complement it i had to ask. I'm fucked. but i should work through it i have before. thankgod i have a big bottle of scotch. and me book0s to write my lyrics. that should sub side everything. i hope it does. i feel like a falure to her. and any female. 8months great til the last and why should i just give up at the sight of rocky roads ahead. why is everything like a novel? why is it so long but you just can't wait til the end? (I've been watching sex and the city at my friends) I HATE THE ENDS OF A FAILING ROMANCE.
I will live on never will i kill myself