havokinblack

well. It's been a great weekend. But just last night i was hit with an emotion i didn't want to feel. Or maybe emotions. I've just found being alone i feel completley alone. When in bed last night i felt completley helpless and small worthless and just dead. It was something i didn't expect. I'm sitting in my car now out front of tafe feeling this way my heart is pounding and i can feel tears ready to come out. It's the worst i've felt since maybe 2oo5 and it's starting to pull me down. I'm going to try real hard to keep stable. Loss of love even when i want it affects me i never want to love again. Right now that's my story. Later