I sure don't feel like it's christmas. It's actually fairly warm outside today again so my guts are not aching and bleeding this lovely afternoon. I thought I was going to go the hospital last night... motherfucking stupid asshole genetics..
I'm going to go home to see my parents on chirstmas eve and sleep over to have a nice christmas morning with the fam. I am in a strange mood these days. So much has changed over the last year and I can't say it's all for the best or worse.. it's just change. I think I officially went insane for part of the year and spent way way way to much time a mess of tears.
Things I have changed dramaticly in my life and I can't say it was pleasent but I can say I learned alot.
Sometimes what's done is done and you can't do anything about it.
I'm sorry doesn't really mean fuck all.
Being older doesn't make you wiser.
I will protect myself from asshole insecure fucks who lie lie lie .
They probably will hate me for it in the long run.
Not everything is up to me to fix, change and care about.
The term "friend" is something to be given with care.
I can not change people.
I can survive on my own.
Surviving is hard.
People who do matter are the people that don't stress me out and don't mind that I don't call.
There is a fantastic person out there that loves me very much.
There are alot more that I have forgotten.. but those seem to be the ones that are on my mind today.
My store is going to be swamped today.. *sigh* I wrapped presents last night and for some reason I've woken up at 2:57 am exactly the last three nights in a row.. wtf?
Daithan took that picture too
I'm going to go home to see my parents on chirstmas eve and sleep over to have a nice christmas morning with the fam. I am in a strange mood these days. So much has changed over the last year and I can't say it's all for the best or worse.. it's just change. I think I officially went insane for part of the year and spent way way way to much time a mess of tears.
Things I have changed dramaticly in my life and I can't say it was pleasent but I can say I learned alot.
Sometimes what's done is done and you can't do anything about it.
I'm sorry doesn't really mean fuck all.
Being older doesn't make you wiser.
I will protect myself from asshole insecure fucks who lie lie lie .
They probably will hate me for it in the long run.
Not everything is up to me to fix, change and care about.
The term "friend" is something to be given with care.
I can not change people.
I can survive on my own.
Surviving is hard.
People who do matter are the people that don't stress me out and don't mind that I don't call.
There is a fantastic person out there that loves me very much.
There are alot more that I have forgotten.. but those seem to be the ones that are on my mind today.
My store is going to be swamped today.. *sigh* I wrapped presents last night and for some reason I've woken up at 2:57 am exactly the last three nights in a row.. wtf?
Daithan took that picture too
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mikey171:
HEY SEXY! just had to say hello for 2007. 
wendy:
it was very nice to read your journal. i've been trying to weed out the negativity from my life over the past couple of years. often times, that means eliminating people from your life. it's hard, but ultimately it's your life and you choose who is in it and who isn't. if people bring you down... they just don't belong.