How am I... Right now?
Errr, well... Honestly.
Stressed, nervous, a tad angry, and some what depressed. Oh Also Worried.
Nervousness is making me stressed and angry, which is leading to depression, which is leading to more Stress. Good innit?
Also I've not been sleeping so good, which leads to all of the above.
Let's start at the top: Stressed.
Errr, well. Work mostly. They just can't give me enough. My colleagues are sayin they have more work than they know what's good for them, but me... nope. And then they ring on my days off, asking me to work extra days. They can't give me enough on my days on but want me to work extra days! I mean wtf! Also Mitch (who is 3 today btw) has been.... "trying" just lately.
Nervousness. Well I am starting back college (school) in september to take a course, so that I can start training to be a nurse right. Fine? Well, it has to be said I am a little worried about if I will be able to keep up with the rest of the class, and am almost sure that I'll be the oldest in the class. I know that it's nerves getting the better of me, of course, but still...
Let's move to anger, worry, and depression. Besides the above worrying, I am also... "concerned" that me and Laura are drifting appart. It seems that she is leading a life all of her own now days, which is fine, and I have no problem with, but I am struggling to see where my part in this life she's made for her self is. I mean really struggling. And yes I have brought it up, and am told, she is entitled to a social life, and that it's organised for when I am at work, but is also on when I am not at work. I feel like a weekend husband... Only it's saturday, and she's gone out (again). So.... yeah. Angers me a little cos... Well not to sound like a douche, but I gave up loads to be with Laura and shit, and well. Yeah.
I think I need my own company for a bit. Which really would never happen at the moment, but also, the last thing I need right now, is my own company.
Errr, well... Honestly.
Stressed, nervous, a tad angry, and some what depressed. Oh Also Worried.
Nervousness is making me stressed and angry, which is leading to depression, which is leading to more Stress. Good innit?
Also I've not been sleeping so good, which leads to all of the above.
Let's start at the top: Stressed.
Errr, well. Work mostly. They just can't give me enough. My colleagues are sayin they have more work than they know what's good for them, but me... nope. And then they ring on my days off, asking me to work extra days. They can't give me enough on my days on but want me to work extra days! I mean wtf! Also Mitch (who is 3 today btw) has been.... "trying" just lately.
Nervousness. Well I am starting back college (school) in september to take a course, so that I can start training to be a nurse right. Fine? Well, it has to be said I am a little worried about if I will be able to keep up with the rest of the class, and am almost sure that I'll be the oldest in the class. I know that it's nerves getting the better of me, of course, but still...
Let's move to anger, worry, and depression. Besides the above worrying, I am also... "concerned" that me and Laura are drifting appart. It seems that she is leading a life all of her own now days, which is fine, and I have no problem with, but I am struggling to see where my part in this life she's made for her self is. I mean really struggling. And yes I have brought it up, and am told, she is entitled to a social life, and that it's organised for when I am at work, but is also on when I am not at work. I feel like a weekend husband... Only it's saturday, and she's gone out (again). So.... yeah. Angers me a little cos... Well not to sound like a douche, but I gave up loads to be with Laura and shit, and well. Yeah.
I think I need my own company for a bit. Which really would never happen at the moment, but also, the last thing I need right now, is my own company.
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imspectr:
Work stress is really hard to defeat, and yes, school will be a challenge, but I'm sure you'll kill it!! I think we've all been in a relationship and felt the way you're feeling now with Lara. I agree with Tues. You need to sit down and talk about it. Key word here is talk. Not argue. Communication is so important. If you can figure out how to communicate well about how you feel, I'm sure you'll be able to resolve the issue together, and be happier than ever. Good luck with everything. 
leib_:
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