Usually mediation works but this was a long process of the past two weeks of just thinking whats what on my next steps in life.
With everything thats been going on with myself lately, its been a roller coaster of emotions and too much of overthinking. Im notorious of overthinking and it just doesn't help when it comes from a dark place. But now that Ive gotten myself out of the dumps and told myself "It doesn't help if I don't take action for myself," Im ready for whatever comes forth. The most important thing is the process of getting my cosmetology license. As I was going through my kit and realizing what I was missing and what I had already, I didn't have to do much to get certain things. Which in my part is great. The only thing is getting the items now which I don't have to worry about much but just wait for my upcoming paycheck and also pay bills of course. Bills always kill my plans but what doesn't? Thats adulting at its finest.
After taking time to myself though and realizing that all is not lost, I just noticed how much time to myself I had lately. I mean I spoke with friends and got to hang out and of course work my day job, I just understood that sometimes, its best to just be to myself if anything. I noticed I drew myself away from certain people for a reason and I have gotten closer to others. I guess I was too trusting to some people which is a fault of my own. It happens but Im glad it wasn't anything drastic.
Nothing but good vibes from here on out, i hope. lol
xoxo
Hatsune