Have you ever felt stuck? Im currently having one of those moments.
So I graduated from cosmetology school last September. It was a good moment in my life til I had to take the state board test. my nerves got the best of me and well, I managed to pass one portion but failed the other and it resulted in me not getting my license. In that moment, I was crushed and was super hard on myself. I was super depressed and didn't know what else to do. Its been about 3 months since I went to state board and I want to reapply to at least but the problem is, the money to even do it. The reapplication fee and getting another kit (well renting it) for the test itself.
You don't understand the stress I get from everyday life when it comes to money.
I do work a retail job and it pays what bills I can pay but when you're late for some and have to ask your family or friends if they can help out, it kills your pride. I want to do more with my hair career but that license is preventing me from it. I still do hair but usually its just my own or my family's. Its so stressful to not have what you need to at least have a little boost in your life. The other crappy part is I want to go to makeup school so i can at least have that under my belt for my hair career. Im beginning to notice though that everything is out of pocket there and if I do another loan, its like double the debt that I already have from going to cosmetology school. I don't want to dig myself deeper and get myself into worse. I am stuck.
Im making efforts to save but sometimes life happens. I don't know if I can keep going on like this but so far, my head has somewhat been above water. I just hope things get a bit better. Im still living, I have a great support system, and Im thankful for what I have in my life even if things get rough. I just need to do my best to not let things get to me. So far, its been working.
Hatsune♡
