haskalmighty

So i wrote this long letter to BeautifulGirl about how i thought it was really important for her to allow people to love her and help her, rather than pushing them away - i told her not to be afraid of me; that i couldn't promise that i'd never turn my back on her, being human, but that the only way to avoid that risk was never to love anyone at all...in short, long letter about why she ought to let me in on her life.

So then i wrote this long letter to myself about how i should chill out and not be in such a rush all the time; about how hard it must be for BG to trust me with as much as she has already, and how it's no good to start getting all impatient now that she is starting to share some of herself with me. I told me that i needed to be honest with her about my insecurity, how i need to be reassured that i'm doing a good job, but i shouldn't place the burden of change solely on her. In short, long letter about why i ought to grow up and be a man.

I suppose i, too, ought to be embarrassed for letting her get to me this way. But in truth, i'm pretty much digging it.