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Friday Apr 27, 2012

Apr 27, 2012
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I'm so very proud of myself. And yet, very much, I wish that I had given into the temptation that presented itself to me last night.

A good friend of mine moved back from Texas and came by the bar to say hello and catch up a bit. At this point, we have about two years of catching up to do. So, we sit and talk and have (quite literally) less than a few drinks. And I mean not enough to get rid of inhibitions or will power.

This guy has been a damn good friend of mine since I was 17. The first day I met him, I lost my house key. We had been introduced by some mutual friends and hit it off pretty well. After about nine hours of getting to know one another, our buddies' band practice, and dinner, it was time for the 17 year old (me) to get my happy ass home. Being the nice guy he is, he took me home. We get to my house, and to my relief, no one's home. Which means I don't have to explain why some strange guy I've only known for nine hours is giving me a ride.

I get to my door, reach into my pants pocket, and realise that my house key is missing. That's when he gets out of the car, looks around, and proceeds to parcore up to the roof. He then fucks up his back a bit by removing the air conditioner from my bedroom window and climbing into my house/bedroom. He goes through my bedroom, downstairs, and opens the door. I've been making up for fucking up his back ever since.

Before he moved to Texas, I really attempted to get with this guy. I had, at one point, attempted a romantic "Geekend". Anime, Star Wars, and Asian food cooked by yours truly. I put a great deal of effort into this. So, of course something comes up to throw a wrench into everything. One of my girlfriends calls me up just bawling her eyes out. A friend of her's ODed and was found dead in his bathroom. I couldn't ignore her in her time of need just for a guy. What kind of friend would that make me out to be? So, I had a third wheel.

This guy has eluded me for years!!!! And I now find him into me and I'm unavailable. The tension is palpable. So much it hurts.blackeyed
4sev4en:
I hate when shit like that happens! It makes you want to scream!!!!
Apr 27, 2012
hartfelt:
Yes, it does.
Apr 27, 2012

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