Tighten your tie boy, You're something to die for, But don't hold you breath now, You're just killing time. Tonight you can dream boy, Imagine a whisper, If you can keep secrets, Then I'll tell you mine. Remember a promise you couldn't hold onto, Though it brings me to tears now, I need you to know, Look in my eyes boys, They're nothing like yours now, Seems like a lifetime is passing us by. So open your eyes - To Die For by The Birthday Massacre
So, everything seems to be going well lately. I have two job offers, and a possible promotion/transfer, a new modeling gig, and a new free phone coming to me. It seems too good to be true. Makes me frightened. My three year anniversary is coming up, too. Strange... Three years with the same person. And I'm still only just a kid. Seems unreal.
I still have no idea what I want to do for my life. I just know I want to do something. I really want a new computer, a new car (60's VW bug, detailed to my perfection), to have time to apprentice for piercing, to have time for business classes, and to have time and make enough money to take time off to volunteer overseas. I figure that if i work in Boulder, I can volunteer with GBLT up there, but then I need time for classes. I get to travel with the modeling thing, but not enough, and I have to go with my ex, who's kind of still hung up on me. I've taken up meditation again, which grants me time to think things over in. Last night I realized that my mind is so cluttered because my space is so cluttered, so I have some clearing to do. Also some long awaited painting to do now that I've got masking tape. I've decided to create for myself a pink room, in contrast to my steel blue and black bedroom. I've got the perfect bedding in mind, too! Yipee! I also now have the time and tape to paint my entry way, living room, and bathroom red. It's about time, all this white has been haunting me and killing my creativity. I haven't written a good song in a while because all the white is eating my soul, or something. Yay black and red!
*Demon
So, everything seems to be going well lately. I have two job offers, and a possible promotion/transfer, a new modeling gig, and a new free phone coming to me. It seems too good to be true. Makes me frightened. My three year anniversary is coming up, too. Strange... Three years with the same person. And I'm still only just a kid. Seems unreal.
I still have no idea what I want to do for my life. I just know I want to do something. I really want a new computer, a new car (60's VW bug, detailed to my perfection), to have time to apprentice for piercing, to have time for business classes, and to have time and make enough money to take time off to volunteer overseas. I figure that if i work in Boulder, I can volunteer with GBLT up there, but then I need time for classes. I get to travel with the modeling thing, but not enough, and I have to go with my ex, who's kind of still hung up on me. I've taken up meditation again, which grants me time to think things over in. Last night I realized that my mind is so cluttered because my space is so cluttered, so I have some clearing to do. Also some long awaited painting to do now that I've got masking tape. I've decided to create for myself a pink room, in contrast to my steel blue and black bedroom. I've got the perfect bedding in mind, too! Yipee! I also now have the time and tape to paint my entry way, living room, and bathroom red. It's about time, all this white has been haunting me and killing my creativity. I haven't written a good song in a while because all the white is eating my soul, or something. Yay black and red!
*Demon