I highly dislike this song, but it details how I've been feeling lately:
I never knew
I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a cue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears - Stolen from Over My Head by The Fray
That's how I feel about them now. That all these years were spent just depending on them never changing. And now they have, and they're gone. I'm very apathetic about this all now. I was pissed until the baby G needed me to be there for her, so I set my anger aside, and now it's found it's niche in that box I had put it in. I sometimes think about how crappy it is to lose my two best friends and the same time on one of my favorite days of the year, but it was for the best. And now it only hits me once in a while, so I think I've rationalized myself out of the inevitable funk.
I am fed up with my current job. Done. I am so pissed at everyone there. My madre told me about a bank job downtown that pays a bit more and gives me the hours I want. I can also wear my high heels to work everyday and not have to worry about running ladders in them. I need to call on it today. Hopefully I can get the job!
So, I've finished my manga, I just need the kid to illustrate the first chapter so I can write in for the next chapter. Freaking teenage slackers. She's probably going to get fired anyways.
My full white rat, Harlow, is starting to learn my commands. I'm teaching her to climb to my shoulder (higher ground), run down my outstreched arms to either hand (right/left), or to get down from my shoulders into the crooks of my arms (slow decent). She's picking up kisses (give me love) pretty well, but she has the same bad habit at Madusa did about trying to tongue me. She's a sweet, but an escape artist. She found her way out of her home twice today. I can't wait until she gets a bit bigger so I dont have to worry about that. She's still just a little baby so far though.
Okay, that's all. I need to order Avon now. I'm such a weirdo.
*Demon
I never knew
I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a cue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears - Stolen from Over My Head by The Fray
That's how I feel about them now. That all these years were spent just depending on them never changing. And now they have, and they're gone. I'm very apathetic about this all now. I was pissed until the baby G needed me to be there for her, so I set my anger aside, and now it's found it's niche in that box I had put it in. I sometimes think about how crappy it is to lose my two best friends and the same time on one of my favorite days of the year, but it was for the best. And now it only hits me once in a while, so I think I've rationalized myself out of the inevitable funk.
I am fed up with my current job. Done. I am so pissed at everyone there. My madre told me about a bank job downtown that pays a bit more and gives me the hours I want. I can also wear my high heels to work everyday and not have to worry about running ladders in them. I need to call on it today. Hopefully I can get the job!
So, I've finished my manga, I just need the kid to illustrate the first chapter so I can write in for the next chapter. Freaking teenage slackers. She's probably going to get fired anyways.
My full white rat, Harlow, is starting to learn my commands. I'm teaching her to climb to my shoulder (higher ground), run down my outstreched arms to either hand (right/left), or to get down from my shoulders into the crooks of my arms (slow decent). She's picking up kisses (give me love) pretty well, but she has the same bad habit at Madusa did about trying to tongue me. She's a sweet, but an escape artist. She found her way out of her home twice today. I can't wait until she gets a bit bigger so I dont have to worry about that. She's still just a little baby so far though.
Okay, that's all. I need to order Avon now. I'm such a weirdo.
*Demon