Disturbing experience tonight.
I live across the street from one of the best bars in the city (the Standard Tap, for anyone in Philly who might happen upon this). I have had a crush on one of the servers there for some time. A simple crush, really. I was sure I didn't want to know her, as it was nice to have a simple, harmless crush on a pretty girl who worked at a great place. Made the place fun to go to, and a crush without agenda simply brightens my day when I go there.
Tonight, she was tending at the upstairs bar, where I ended up hanging out. It turns out she's pretty goddamn cool. It almost pisses me off that there's the potential for my simple, pointless crush could turn into an actual crush. It RUINS EVERYTHING!
I'm sure my typing will attest (even as I try to correct it) that I'm pretty drunk right now. It's just difficult to admit I have a crush on someone, when I've been trying to be an army of one right now. Don't get me wrong - I'm hornay as hell most of the time. I just can't seem to be in the right headspace to hitch my wagon alongside anoyone else's lately.
Also, I met my first SG IRL this week. I happened to be at a club she was dancing at. She was quite nice, and I had a good time at the club. I would rather have met (and would still rather meet an SG in a situation where neither of us was maiking money, but that's just my own girl-next-door fantasies in action. Still, it was a cool experience, and I again felt a certain sense of pride in being a member of this palpable community.
I live across the street from one of the best bars in the city (the Standard Tap, for anyone in Philly who might happen upon this). I have had a crush on one of the servers there for some time. A simple crush, really. I was sure I didn't want to know her, as it was nice to have a simple, harmless crush on a pretty girl who worked at a great place. Made the place fun to go to, and a crush without agenda simply brightens my day when I go there.
Tonight, she was tending at the upstairs bar, where I ended up hanging out. It turns out she's pretty goddamn cool. It almost pisses me off that there's the potential for my simple, pointless crush could turn into an actual crush. It RUINS EVERYTHING!
I'm sure my typing will attest (even as I try to correct it) that I'm pretty drunk right now. It's just difficult to admit I have a crush on someone, when I've been trying to be an army of one right now. Don't get me wrong - I'm hornay as hell most of the time. I just can't seem to be in the right headspace to hitch my wagon alongside anoyone else's lately.
Also, I met my first SG IRL this week. I happened to be at a club she was dancing at. She was quite nice, and I had a good time at the club. I would rather have met (and would still rather meet an SG in a situation where neither of us was maiking money, but that's just my own girl-next-door fantasies in action. Still, it was a cool experience, and I again felt a certain sense of pride in being a member of this palpable community.