-Work. It's going really well. My boss is really impressed with how i've caught on to everything so quickly. I'm really thankful for that. I do see myself being with the company for awhile. My club in particular has been going through alot of changes. Even since i've been there which is only 3 weeks. But one of our operations [front desk] managers had to be fired cuz he was cheatin the system and then another girl who started a little before i did just quit showing up. Needless to say, i've picked up quite a few hours in the last week. My first pay check was definitely a downer because it wasn't even enough to cover my negative bank account
But i will be getting paid again on the 9th and hopefully from then on things will be getting better... Lets hope.
-I just checked my checking account and it's been closed. Uggg... I HATE banks with a passion. If i didn't need a checking account or anything like that i totally wouldn't use one. The manager is going to call me back tomorrow after she figures out what the deal is.
-My boy. I honestly do love him a great deal. Sometimes i don't show him in the best light haha. He really is wonderful. It's just as of lately i've been on edge with everything thats going on in our lives. I feel like the adult in our relationship about 70% of the time and it just gets to me. I don't like being the one with all the responsibilities and the one who doesn't get to have any fun lol. I never get to go out because i don't have money.. So i mean obviously thats not too fun for me. I have to save all of my money because i have to pay bills. And any money he gets he blows on whatever. I think it's just a maturity thing. Which i totally get but it just gets annoying and kinda hurts my feelings after awhile. Sometimes i just need him to be there for me and be my boyfriend. To comfort me and stuff. But he doesn't really understand how to do that lol. Telling me I'm pretty or cute and just comforting me when somethings going wrong is not one of those things he's good at. The funny thing is though... We took a love language test to find out what each of our "love languages" were. He and I BOTH had Words of Affirmation as our top "love language". Meaning... We BOTH like to hear what the other person thinks/feels about us. Sometimes, i just wish he would realize that I would like to hear the same things I tell him as well. He just needs to remember that we AREN'T in the same state yet. So, him even just telling me how he feels and stuff makes a huge difference. ok.. enough on the boy
-My Birthday is MONDAYYYY!!
PRESENTS? 
I was really hoping that my parents would buy my bus ticket up to Judson for the weekend. But they won't.
I'm sure this birthday is going to be a crappy one.. The boyfriend isn't going to be getting me anything because he's moneyless.. and my best friend has been MIA for the past 3 weeks because she's stuck on her ass hole ET looking "ex boyfriend". I know she isn't telling me everything about him. Oh well, i guess i'll just spend my birthday with my sisters. It wont be THAT Horrible... it just kinda sucks.
-The only other thing i need to rant about is the fact that I HATE having all these passions and dreams. I talked with my friend
Othello about it last night. I refuse to be stuck in Indiana for the rest of my life. I just don't know what to do. I want to start my own Non profit organization and tour around the United States.. But at the same time i love music more than anything and really want to work for an independent music label, I want to live in England, Italy, Australia, or Egypt for awhile and just experience the different culture of it all. I want to do more with my passion for photography... It just sucks. I hate having all of these things I want to do. I'm considering more and more every day only getting my Associates degree in Business or something. School isn't for me. But i feel like I MUST Have a degree in something to fall back on if my world crashes down on me lol.
OKAY, END RANT!!!
