Well it feels like summer is finally here. Yesterday I was found roaming the streets in flip flops, boardshorts and a vest! 
Its the middle of April!? So Im keeping a beedy eye out for that sneaky winter making a comeback. The funny thing about the UK is summer doesnt creep up on you gradually. It just arrives one day, after a cold mornining, always gets you in your warmest winter clothes and you end up sweating off your winter lard carrying your heavy jacket and layers home with you. "Hi! Im here! Sorry I took so long, but I got held up coming over the Congo, you know how it is in Africa... *sigh* Got any tea?". 
So now that My skin is more on show, I am super restless to get back in shape for the summer. I definately dont want to be self concious this summer, Ive spent way too many summers being self concious! And besides, Ive been shopping for summer clothes on Ebay and all the nice things I want, I cant get because Im not a UK size 10 anymore. I was even a UK 8 (US 6) once! About ten years ago... When I was dancing all the time, hardly eating, taking diet pills and ecstacy and out clubbing every weekend all weekend. haha! Sometimes I think about going back to drugs and clubbing to lose weight, it certainly is a great way to lose weight, but for health reasons, its really in My best interest if I go straight edge. Which I would do. Except I LIKE the taste of alcohol. Especially Cider in the summer months. And Ive discovered Canadian Club Whiskey and Lemonade which is nice too if youre in a club in heels.
Today I am going to fill in My British Citizenship application so I can send it off next week once I get a couple of My friends to sign the necessary pages and photographs. It should take around 4 months to be approved and then another couple months to do the ceremony and get my British Passport. I know, because my mother just did hers and I am so jealous! I am also dumb founded that she didnt request dual nationality. That she just renounced her South African citizenship. I was even slightly offended. Anyway, this hot weather makes me super home sick because it reminds me what its like back home...
Summer in London is so boring! I mean, what are you supposed to do with the nice weather if you cant afford to sit at the pub and drink and you dont have any friends to drink with? Im missing Newquay now. I cant wait to go back, but I need to make some money to book a room at one of the hostels there for the summer. I plan on dancing at their local strip club and learning to surf during the day, and if I can, play some DJ gigs on the hostel beach terraces
Its funny how I have always had friends in other counties but never in London. Ive never really had buddies I can just hang out with here. London is a lonely place!
Ive stopped dancing here in London. I just cant stomach that club anymore. Im sick of dealing with assholes and having to deal with being objectified. I was ok being objectified before I grew some self esteem, now Im fiercly offended by it! I WANTED to be objectified when I was growing up because I was rejected all through my younger years. Now, I respect myself and I have become a Female Supremacist so I really hate it when men treat me like a play thing. Which makes it hard for me to be a convincing stripper and make money since we have to hustle for our money. Its not as easy as showing up in a dress, make up and heels, smiling and taking off your clothes while you dance. No, they want more now.
So maybe I will try a different club in town. One that is strictly no touching, that way I dont have to deal with the kind of people who expect more for their money. Maybe I should get off my high horse. Whats being objectified for six hours a night if it makes you money right? What did!Lily St Cyr say... Whats the use of being beautiful if you dont make money out of it - or something like that.
So my goals for the rest of this year, now that I have my laptop, is get in shape, get my longboard skateboard, learn to surf, make money, move out, go travelling.
Here's a picture of me at a pinup shoot I did in summer 2005
Its the middle of April!? So Im keeping a beedy eye out for that sneaky winter making a comeback. The funny thing about the UK is summer doesnt creep up on you gradually. It just arrives one day, after a cold mornining, always gets you in your warmest winter clothes and you end up sweating off your winter lard carrying your heavy jacket and layers home with you. "Hi! Im here! Sorry I took so long, but I got held up coming over the Congo, you know how it is in Africa... *sigh* Got any tea?". So now that My skin is more on show, I am super restless to get back in shape for the summer. I definately dont want to be self concious this summer, Ive spent way too many summers being self concious! And besides, Ive been shopping for summer clothes on Ebay and all the nice things I want, I cant get because Im not a UK size 10 anymore. I was even a UK 8 (US 6) once! About ten years ago... When I was dancing all the time, hardly eating, taking diet pills and ecstacy and out clubbing every weekend all weekend. haha! Sometimes I think about going back to drugs and clubbing to lose weight, it certainly is a great way to lose weight, but for health reasons, its really in My best interest if I go straight edge. Which I would do. Except I LIKE the taste of alcohol. Especially Cider in the summer months. And Ive discovered Canadian Club Whiskey and Lemonade which is nice too if youre in a club in heels.
Today I am going to fill in My British Citizenship application so I can send it off next week once I get a couple of My friends to sign the necessary pages and photographs. It should take around 4 months to be approved and then another couple months to do the ceremony and get my British Passport. I know, because my mother just did hers and I am so jealous! I am also dumb founded that she didnt request dual nationality. That she just renounced her South African citizenship. I was even slightly offended. Anyway, this hot weather makes me super home sick because it reminds me what its like back home...
Summer in London is so boring! I mean, what are you supposed to do with the nice weather if you cant afford to sit at the pub and drink and you dont have any friends to drink with? Im missing Newquay now. I cant wait to go back, but I need to make some money to book a room at one of the hostels there for the summer. I plan on dancing at their local strip club and learning to surf during the day, and if I can, play some DJ gigs on the hostel beach terraces
Its funny how I have always had friends in other counties but never in London. Ive never really had buddies I can just hang out with here. London is a lonely place!Ive stopped dancing here in London. I just cant stomach that club anymore. Im sick of dealing with assholes and having to deal with being objectified. I was ok being objectified before I grew some self esteem, now Im fiercly offended by it! I WANTED to be objectified when I was growing up because I was rejected all through my younger years. Now, I respect myself and I have become a Female Supremacist so I really hate it when men treat me like a play thing. Which makes it hard for me to be a convincing stripper and make money since we have to hustle for our money. Its not as easy as showing up in a dress, make up and heels, smiling and taking off your clothes while you dance. No, they want more now.
So maybe I will try a different club in town. One that is strictly no touching, that way I dont have to deal with the kind of people who expect more for their money. Maybe I should get off my high horse. Whats being objectified for six hours a night if it makes you money right? What did!Lily St Cyr say... Whats the use of being beautiful if you dont make money out of it - or something like that.
So my goals for the rest of this year, now that I have my laptop, is get in shape, get my longboard skateboard, learn to surf, make money, move out, go travelling.
Here's a picture of me at a pinup shoot I did in summer 2005