1. The last time I had sex was on New Years Day. So, I am thinking a lot about it and sometimes considering going to Cass to get some, but then I cant deal with the complications that will kick up...
2. Am completely and utterly frustrated with stripping. It DOES NOT have to be this hard! I am sick of going into work and there hardly being any customers and then the ones that are in, making it like a fucking judges jury or triganomitry exam just to get a fucking hot dance from me! ARGH! GOD! I am not even asking for that much. Is it so much that I can take home 200 a night for 3 nights work so I can apply to become a naturalised british citizen, pay off my debts and go travelling? I mean really. It shouldnt be such fucking hard work! I am SO pissed off! I went home early with nothing tonight. I cannot stand, standing around at work with twice as many girls as customers.
3. I am feeling SO fat right now. 140 pounds and counting. All I want is some money to afford to attend the personal training gym in Ealing so I can get back on the road to fitness and drop 20 pounds. With a hot body Im sure I will have way more confidence at work.
4. I wish I could switch myself off at work and be someone else. Ive tried getting drunk, doing coke and am thinking about taking tranquilisers just to switch my fucking brain off so I can do my fucking job without getting frustrated and wanting to shove my stiletto up everyone's ass.
5. I cant figure out if I am the problem in this. Am I too much of a Type A personality, too much of a perfectionist, think too much, too analytical, too this, too that, too shut the fuck up already!?
6. I am seriously considering working as an outcall dominatrix but im scared to try because everything I have ever tried has turned out crap and im tired of feeling like such a crashing failure. I just want to make as much money as i can in the shortest amount of time so i can get my ass on a plane out of this god forsaked freezing cold miserable waste of a country.
2. Am completely and utterly frustrated with stripping. It DOES NOT have to be this hard! I am sick of going into work and there hardly being any customers and then the ones that are in, making it like a fucking judges jury or triganomitry exam just to get a fucking hot dance from me! ARGH! GOD! I am not even asking for that much. Is it so much that I can take home 200 a night for 3 nights work so I can apply to become a naturalised british citizen, pay off my debts and go travelling? I mean really. It shouldnt be such fucking hard work! I am SO pissed off! I went home early with nothing tonight. I cannot stand, standing around at work with twice as many girls as customers.
3. I am feeling SO fat right now. 140 pounds and counting. All I want is some money to afford to attend the personal training gym in Ealing so I can get back on the road to fitness and drop 20 pounds. With a hot body Im sure I will have way more confidence at work.
4. I wish I could switch myself off at work and be someone else. Ive tried getting drunk, doing coke and am thinking about taking tranquilisers just to switch my fucking brain off so I can do my fucking job without getting frustrated and wanting to shove my stiletto up everyone's ass.
5. I cant figure out if I am the problem in this. Am I too much of a Type A personality, too much of a perfectionist, think too much, too analytical, too this, too that, too shut the fuck up already!?
6. I am seriously considering working as an outcall dominatrix but im scared to try because everything I have ever tried has turned out crap and im tired of feeling like such a crashing failure. I just want to make as much money as i can in the shortest amount of time so i can get my ass on a plane out of this god forsaked freezing cold miserable waste of a country.
Do you mind me asking what club you work at?
BTW, are those club boys fucking blind?! You're ga'damn gorgeous!
(Haha. Just noticed one of your photo sets was from April 16. Happy birthday to ME!)