hey, i havent posted anything in a while.
i broke up with cass on sunday. spent the next 3 days stressing about wether i made the right decision. he hasnt been in contact and i was kinda hoping he would be. i have days now wen i dont think about him and then days wen i really miss him. i feel sad about all the good times we had that are over. we never really had any bad times. he did nothing wrong. in fact he treated me like his queen, but i guess i was just feeling too smothered. i felt like he expected more than i was willing to give. so im sad in a way, but then i never planned to settle down with him anyway. there are still plenty more men for me to explore!
i have been dancing what feels like nearly every night these past two weeks. trying to make some money and earning half as much as i want to earn. last night i only came home with 104... its like squeezing blood from a stone! i just cant seem to sell VIP's cos they make them so expensive in my club... this week ive made only 300, for 3 nights work. i should have made 1000. so im thinking about trying out a busier club, if there is such a thing...
ive decided to take regular dance classes. i need to lose at least 10-15 pounds. i cant fit into my deisel jeans anymore and its because the only exercise i get is at work giving lap dances and going on stage once or twice a night which isnt much. i want to take some pole dancing lessons also, build up my upper body strength and learn some cool tricks. eventually i want to start choreographing some stage shows. i want to do a dance to eva cassidy's "wade in the water" and to george michael's "father figure".
im feeling positive because i have a goal and thats to get my passport and go travelling, its just earning that money! i need to really get my sales technique down so i can earn better and faster at work. and im also thinking about being an outcall dominatrix and webcam foot fetish mistress lol. i just need to get some money in as fast as possible. i dont want to spend another year in this country.
i have a myspace for my dancing, check it out at London Dancer
i broke up with cass on sunday. spent the next 3 days stressing about wether i made the right decision. he hasnt been in contact and i was kinda hoping he would be. i have days now wen i dont think about him and then days wen i really miss him. i feel sad about all the good times we had that are over. we never really had any bad times. he did nothing wrong. in fact he treated me like his queen, but i guess i was just feeling too smothered. i felt like he expected more than i was willing to give. so im sad in a way, but then i never planned to settle down with him anyway. there are still plenty more men for me to explore!
i have been dancing what feels like nearly every night these past two weeks. trying to make some money and earning half as much as i want to earn. last night i only came home with 104... its like squeezing blood from a stone! i just cant seem to sell VIP's cos they make them so expensive in my club... this week ive made only 300, for 3 nights work. i should have made 1000. so im thinking about trying out a busier club, if there is such a thing...
ive decided to take regular dance classes. i need to lose at least 10-15 pounds. i cant fit into my deisel jeans anymore and its because the only exercise i get is at work giving lap dances and going on stage once or twice a night which isnt much. i want to take some pole dancing lessons also, build up my upper body strength and learn some cool tricks. eventually i want to start choreographing some stage shows. i want to do a dance to eva cassidy's "wade in the water" and to george michael's "father figure".
im feeling positive because i have a goal and thats to get my passport and go travelling, its just earning that money! i need to really get my sales technique down so i can earn better and faster at work. and im also thinking about being an outcall dominatrix and webcam foot fetish mistress lol. i just need to get some money in as fast as possible. i dont want to spend another year in this country.
i have a myspace for my dancing, check it out at London Dancer
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hood:
Happy Birthday Sweetie 
littlesherbert:
aw cool. happy birthday. things will work out, i wish i could watch you dance. xx