The other night I was up late and watched a couple of the vlog videos I did a while back. While watching them I remembered how much fun I had doing them and how fun I am in the videos. One of the videos I watched was when at around 3 in the morning I walked down to what is now my current home as it was being built to show it off and have a creepy factor. A lot has changed since then. I have moved. I have gone through a few jobs and life in general feels different in both good and bad ways.
It's so easy to get stuck in a rut. Go to work, work hard, come home tired. Go to work, work hard, come home tired. I am in no way depressed or in bad state mental health wise but I believe shooting these videos will help. While I might not be in a bad state any help to my mental state is a great thing and is always important. It's necessary to constantly improve your mental health so you remain in a good state and it doesn't deteriorate.
I have worked hard all my life and my last three jobs have either shut down or terminated my department/shift. I have a strong work ethic but it can be hard to stay motivated and helpful when all your hard work is rewarded like that. I rarely, if ever, get to take vacations. I work to make a living and with this current job I didn't get any time off until late summer. I actually finally took one vacation to Pigeon Forge with some old friends and it was such a needed release and getaway. I plan to save my time for this summer and get out and travel.
Sometimes, like anyone else, I get down. Sometimes, I get lonely and want someone to talk to just to have companionship and conversation. I often stay up late just because I don't really want to go to bed. These are things that can be improved. I feel by shooting this vlog videos and really letting my personality shine and talking about things, that it can really help. I also plan to take advantage of my time off this summer as I said and take vacations. Yes, a strong work ethic is important. Yes, I work hard. I deserve the time off and my place of employment can live without me during those vacation times.
With this videos, I don't particularly care about the views. Obviously, being successful and having a lot of views would be nice but that isn't the point. The point is for fun and my own benefit. Who knows, maybe by doing these I can finally start to meet likeminded people who are into the same weird shit I am. Either way, I plan to start soon.
