We talked a decent bit yesterday. Again about the podcast and issues surrounding it. I thanked her because the podcast has helped me a bit. I then said that I didn't mean to sound like a broken record but again that anytime she needed any kind of help or if I could give help back I would be there. She said she's just not willing to share. I told her I respected that and wouldn't push but I would at least keep her in my thoughts and keep praying for her.
It doesn't change the fact that I still really want to help. I kind of wish I could have worded it how I really meant it as in not just what was going on majorly in or life but anything. If she wanted to talk about anything. Having a bad day or a shitty day at work, someone who was a real asshole to her, being annoyed with traffic or even just being in one of those moods we all get into sometimes where we just want to talk to someone, not about anything in particular or anything serious, just talk. However, at the same time I get it and I will respect her and no longer push anything.
I am still going to talk to her from time to time about the things we usually do. You know, just be her friend. That's all I can do. While I am bummed that I can't help as much as I would like I still feel that maybe I have been able to make a small difference. When we met at the bar I was very polite and real, tried to make her feel better and said I really hoped things got better. I tried to be kind. Maybe that little bit of kindness did help just a little bit.