Again, I will be very vague with the details out of respect for her but this is the site I go to in order to write about things I can't on my normal pages where I actually know people.
I talked to her just a little bit today. I asked her about a certain episode of the podcast she sent me as a conversation starter. To make it as vague and basic as possible she told me she had been in a bad place for a very long time. I was very honest and told her that I could never fully understand what she was going through but that anytime she needed someone to just listen I would be there for her, that she could throw things at me, bounce things at me and I would be there to listen. We talked about trust issues and such.
I genuinely want to help her. I know I cannot just swoop in and take everything away and make everything 100% better. I realize she doesn't have to accept my help. However, I still want her to know that I am very genuine and sincere in wanting to help how I can. As I said in my last post I don't believe in coincidence, at least not so many in one. Certain things have been on my mind. What are the chances that a movie falls on that particular day for me to ask off of work, something I never do, the movie falls to where I would be at that bar, my favorite bar on the perfect time to run into her and we would discuss a lot of things that were on my mind? Things that related more to her than me. There is also the fact the the actual release date for the movie was Friday, the next day, but it just so happened they had a special early release, that day at that time. Again, I am being very vague here but a lot of it was spot on. What are the chances that she would be the one person in a long, long time I felt any kind of connection with and to have a real desire in my heart to help?
For now I am going to try not to smother her by texting or talking too much. I am trying to go enough at a steady pace to where I don't do that but I don't abandon her. I really don't know exactly what to do but I am going to give it my best try.