Needs advice and people to read this blog!!!! One of my most important yet!!!
So... SG's and SGers. I think... yes, indeed I do believe I have a crush on someone. It has been such a long time since I have had a crush, it kinda crept up on and surprised me. She recently moved to my area and joined a local group I am in. The group is for people who like, anime, comics, video games, you know, "geeky stuff." Well anyway, she was introducing herself and I started talking to her. I was just meaning to be her friend, help her around the area and such, never even thought I would grow to "like". It wasn't until we started hanging out that I started to realize something. She likes video games, she likes anime and it seemed she really enjoyed spending time with me. She would come over to my house and we would play some L4D2. We had pizza one night at my house then I went over to her house one night, played some L4D2 and watched The Fourth Kind. As fun as all that was, very fun, the thing I enjoyed most was just talking, chatting it up. It didn't have to be about anything in particular, didn't have to be an important discussion. It just made me smile and made me happy to talk to her. I wanted to make sure however, that I did like her before I made my move. It has been a long time, I am a nice guy and the last thing I wanted to was to make a move then a month later find out I was wrong about my feelings.
I finally figured out asking her out was the way I wanted to go. But that's when things changed. I wanted to get to hang out with her again, ask her in person instead of just over a text or over the phone. But her behavior started to change. There were little things she said that made me wonder if she wasn't crushing on someone else... I can get paranoid, not having the worlds best luck with women. I knew I could easily be wrong and I brushed it off. Then there were other things. She didn't text me as much as she used to. At first we were constantly texting, today.. she didn't even respond to me..... She hasn't been seeming to want to hang out as much. Yesterday she was busy, she had a job interview and stuff to do that day. I didn't mind that. She also seemed to really care about my well being when I was at a bar drinking. She offered to give me a ride home, told me to be careful and wanted me to text her when I got home. No one has done that for me in long time and it felt nice. But then today.. ((We did talk in the group chat, so maybe she has phone problems? Maybe her phone's dead and she lost her charger, maybe she has a limited text plan, maybe she just didn't feel like talking at all?)) but she didn't ever text me back. I'm really hope I am just looking too much into that. It's just this back and forth see saw of things that really make me wonder....
Anyway, I am off work again tomorrow. We lost an employee so I don't see many days off in my future. Tomorrow... I am going to once again ask her to hang. When we hang I am just going to be myself and try to get into that chatting mode that is just so fun and makes me happy. Then, I am going to gather up the courage to just tell her how I feel. If she is thinking of another guy, I at least have to try right? Put my effort in there. No one can say I didn't try. I really hope she can... and that she at least responds to me. It has been a long time since I have had a crush, longer since I have dated. This would be a great thing for me, and I would be happier more. My question to anyone reading this is do you have any advice, what do you think? Also, wish me luck. I know I won't sleep much tonight......
So... SG's and SGers. I think... yes, indeed I do believe I have a crush on someone. It has been such a long time since I have had a crush, it kinda crept up on and surprised me. She recently moved to my area and joined a local group I am in. The group is for people who like, anime, comics, video games, you know, "geeky stuff." Well anyway, she was introducing herself and I started talking to her. I was just meaning to be her friend, help her around the area and such, never even thought I would grow to "like". It wasn't until we started hanging out that I started to realize something. She likes video games, she likes anime and it seemed she really enjoyed spending time with me. She would come over to my house and we would play some L4D2. We had pizza one night at my house then I went over to her house one night, played some L4D2 and watched The Fourth Kind. As fun as all that was, very fun, the thing I enjoyed most was just talking, chatting it up. It didn't have to be about anything in particular, didn't have to be an important discussion. It just made me smile and made me happy to talk to her. I wanted to make sure however, that I did like her before I made my move. It has been a long time, I am a nice guy and the last thing I wanted to was to make a move then a month later find out I was wrong about my feelings.
I finally figured out asking her out was the way I wanted to go. But that's when things changed. I wanted to get to hang out with her again, ask her in person instead of just over a text or over the phone. But her behavior started to change. There were little things she said that made me wonder if she wasn't crushing on someone else... I can get paranoid, not having the worlds best luck with women. I knew I could easily be wrong and I brushed it off. Then there were other things. She didn't text me as much as she used to. At first we were constantly texting, today.. she didn't even respond to me..... She hasn't been seeming to want to hang out as much. Yesterday she was busy, she had a job interview and stuff to do that day. I didn't mind that. She also seemed to really care about my well being when I was at a bar drinking. She offered to give me a ride home, told me to be careful and wanted me to text her when I got home. No one has done that for me in long time and it felt nice. But then today.. ((We did talk in the group chat, so maybe she has phone problems? Maybe her phone's dead and she lost her charger, maybe she has a limited text plan, maybe she just didn't feel like talking at all?)) but she didn't ever text me back. I'm really hope I am just looking too much into that. It's just this back and forth see saw of things that really make me wonder....
Anyway, I am off work again tomorrow. We lost an employee so I don't see many days off in my future. Tomorrow... I am going to once again ask her to hang. When we hang I am just going to be myself and try to get into that chatting mode that is just so fun and makes me happy. Then, I am going to gather up the courage to just tell her how I feel. If she is thinking of another guy, I at least have to try right? Put my effort in there. No one can say I didn't try. I really hope she can... and that she at least responds to me. It has been a long time since I have had a crush, longer since I have dated. This would be a great thing for me, and I would be happier more. My question to anyone reading this is do you have any advice, what do you think? Also, wish me luck. I know I won't sleep much tonight......