Ok so Jason finally got what was comming to him and caught the virus we all suffered with last week. Poor baby he's SO sick.
So it snowed like 15 inches here! I'm sure you're thinking; "Well she lives in Wisconsin this should be normal." But really we've been pretty spoiled the last few years. No huge storms like this. No more than 9 inches...
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So it snowed like 15 inches here! I'm sure you're thinking; "Well she lives in Wisconsin this should be normal." But really we've been pretty spoiled the last few years. No huge storms like this. No more than 9 inches...
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charlize:
Sorry, I have been soooooooooooo busy! I have been meaning to update, but havent gotten around to it. I should be sleeping now, but I am too upset. Upset by something stupid; a boy. I went to go see my old friend's band play (I didnt even end up staying long enough to see the band) and the last person I wanted to see was there. I hate it, I hate it so much. For the longest time I refused to regret anything, but I can't help but regret what happened with him. We were just friends, but the end of our friendship was really messy. I loved him to death and every time I see him I want to make things better, but I can't. It makes me want to die. 
I get so upset. It makes me feel like such a dumb ass. I tried everything I could to make things better and when it didn't work I cut all ties, yet I still run in to him time and again and I hate it. I always talk to him and it goes really well at first, but, I don't know...it's weird. I wish I could change the past desperately. He was so important to me. When our relationship fell apart it was one of the worst heart aches I have ever felt. That was a year and a half ago and it still hurts sometimes. Everytime I see him I feel devestated again. I am so dumb. I need to stop getting so worked up over nothing. He was the first guy that truly cared about me beyond some sexual desire. Until him I never believed a guy would ever care about me. It's probably the only reason I still care. I wish I could fix it.
I get so upset. It makes me feel like such a dumb ass. I tried everything I could to make things better and when it didn't work I cut all ties, yet I still run in to him time and again and I hate it. I always talk to him and it goes really well at first, but, I don't know...it's weird. I wish I could change the past desperately. He was so important to me. When our relationship fell apart it was one of the worst heart aches I have ever felt. That was a year and a half ago and it still hurts sometimes. Everytime I see him I feel devestated again. I am so dumb. I need to stop getting so worked up over nothing. He was the first guy that truly cared about me beyond some sexual desire. Until him I never believed a guy would ever care about me. It's probably the only reason I still care. I wish I could fix it.
charlize:
Sorry I unloaded on you... Were you sick or something? Being sick sucks. I really don't like snow that much either, unless it prevents me from working. Sucks for you, though, seeing as you had to work anyhow. 
MY GOD!
I was so sick this weekend I think I my have found Jesus. He was in my livingroom last time I saw him in case anyone is wondering.
I'm finally feeling better but I'm having BIG problems with my teeth again. I have to have this big complicated root canal involving several teeth. My regular dentist can't even do it I have to...
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I was so sick this weekend I think I my have found Jesus. He was in my livingroom last time I saw him in case anyone is wondering.
I'm finally feeling better but I'm having BIG problems with my teeth again.
I have to have this big complicated root canal involving several teeth. My regular dentist can't even do it I have to... Read More
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mle:
pishaw! donnie darko is awesome. you just need to watch it again!
yuriel:
that movie was good.
*shrug*
ew poor girl
ick. i wish i knew what to say. feel better soon adn get yer teeth taken care of.
ew patrick swayze
*shrug*
ew poor girl
ick. i wish i knew what to say. feel better soon adn get yer teeth taken care of.
ew patrick swayze
The whole family minus Jay is a little under the weather.
I hate being sick!
I know that I talk badly about Jason alot but he really is good to us. I think alot of the time I just like to be in so much control of things that I don't really leave anything FOR him to take care of. Did I ever tell about...
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I hate being sick!
I know that I talk badly about Jason alot but he really is good to us. I think alot of the time I just like to be in so much control of things that I don't really leave anything FOR him to take care of. Did I ever tell about...
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Feeling some better...........I wish I could go on a vacation. The last vacation we took was our honeymoon almost 2 years ago. We went to Florida. Daytona and Orlando. I had never been to Disney World so that was neat. But I'm really not that outdoorsie. I'm not the kind of person who wants to sit on the beach all day. Next vacation (assuming there...
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yuriel:
Yer quite welcome 
charlize:
How old were you when you had your baby? How old are they now? You have more than one, right? Did drugs really mess things up in college for you? I always wonder how much drugs have an affect on people. I have never done any drugs, not even pot. I have watched them destroy people I love, though. I was thinking that I may dance, maybe. But I won't jump into something like that. I will think about it for a good two to three months. My day job is admin assistant. It is soooooo not for me. I am really good at it, but I HATE it. That is way I am going to school to do something I WANT to do. I would be so much happier. Ya know?
I would love to go there too, NYC. I have never been, but it has been a dream to go there. Also, having a vacation in general. I haven't been on a vacation in four years at least. That is a lot of working. I only have taken time off for surgery and I hardly count that as vacation. What did you do at Juilliard? I wanted to go there for music. I was too afraid to try though. So dumb sometimes!
I would love to go there too, NYC. I have never been, but it has been a dream to go there. Also, having a vacation in general. I haven't been on a vacation in four years at least. That is a lot of working. I only have taken time off for surgery and I hardly count that as vacation. What did you do at Juilliard? I wanted to go there for music. I was too afraid to try though. So dumb sometimes!
Thank you to all who wished me a Happy Birthday! It raised my spirits.
I did have a nice Birthday. My friend Kyle threw my sister and I a party. Martinis and lots a gay boys. Good fun!
My husband suprized me by taking me to Pirates of Penzans and taking me to this great Mexican place. It isn't one of those really spicy lots...
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I did have a nice Birthday. My friend Kyle threw my sister and I a party. Martinis and lots a gay boys. Good fun!
My husband suprized me by taking me to Pirates of Penzans and taking me to this great Mexican place. It isn't one of those really spicy lots...
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panik:
I think 26 is the most beatiful age. You are feeling old but you've experianced lots of thing about the life. You are lucky
I am younger and I am worried about lots of thing that I didn't experiance. I am busy with stupid stuff. You are not alone there are lots of people around you with love and respect; your husband, your family and friends. We'll all gonna die, its your life. Do what you want to do. I mean don't plan just do it maybe it will be too late.
I am younger and I am worried about lots of thing that I didn't experiance. I am busy with stupid stuff. You are not alone there are lots of people around you with love and respect; your husband, your family and friends. We'll all gonna die, its your life. Do what you want to do. I mean don't plan just do it maybe it will be too late.
geraldine:
That's not true. You're at your prime and you can do anything you want! But first, what is it that you want to do?
I'm at that point also. I'm 23, and I look at my life and think, I haven't done anything that I said I was going to! That irks me. But I know I just have to get off my butt and start doing instead of just planning. We might not be here tomorrow, so live you life in that sense.
I will definitely try kettle tea! Thanks sweetie!
I'm so glad you had a wonderful birthday. You deserve to have a good time and smile.
I'm at that point also. I'm 23, and I look at my life and think, I haven't done anything that I said I was going to! That irks me. But I know I just have to get off my butt and start doing instead of just planning. We might not be here tomorrow, so live you life in that sense.
I will definitely try kettle tea! Thanks sweetie!
I'm so glad you had a wonderful birthday. You deserve to have a good time and smile.
tomorrow is my birthday. Yippeee!
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adema:
Happy Birthday. And thx for your comment, you are lovely!
sexypalegirl:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO A GREAT PERSON....IM GLAD WE MET WELL ONLINE THAT IS...SOON IN PERSON I HOPE....
HAVE A GREAT BIRTHDAY.....
HAVE A GREAT BIRTHDAY.....
OK short entry. My husband got an account soley so he could read my journal entries. So I'm not going to update for awhile untill I can figure out what to do.
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ash:
thanks so much for the comment on my set!!! I know its probably really late now, lol, but I had a lotta comments
geraldine:
Don't worry. You have a right to express your feelings. It's really a necessity for the soul. He might not like what he's going to read, but you can't help the way you feel.
I'm feeling nasty about my husband cuz, well what else is new?? So here is a story proving what a moron he is sometimes and what a SAINT I am to put up with him.
Ok so for those of you who have heard this, feel free to ignore.
Before I had the baby we were shopping around looking for breast pumps. Jason picks up...
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Ok so for those of you who have heard this, feel free to ignore.
Before I had the baby we were shopping around looking for breast pumps. Jason picks up...
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sexypalegirl:
im so sorry to heat things like that...how long have u been married...counseling maybe...never stay with someone wo isnt right for the wrong reason...
you take care love....
you take care love....
sexypalegirl:
oh ps i still want o come up to visit and we could meet and hang out possibly....soon
OH MY GOD!!!!!!
YOu will NEVER believe what happened!!! OK OK OK SO I told you that I had had this big break down at my review last week. WELLLLLL, Kathy (the girl I had been having so many problems with) had her review today. About ten mins after her review she came to me and said that she needed to talk to me. She...
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YOu will NEVER believe what happened!!! OK OK OK SO I told you that I had had this big break down at my review last week. WELLLLLL, Kathy (the girl I had been having so many problems with) had her review today. About ten mins after her review she came to me and said that she needed to talk to me. She...
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yuriel:
yay
dumpstarx:
yeah see I am a visionary. When the muse strikes...I show no fear, no hesitation...I follow my dream. Even when my dream's a tube thong. BOOYAHKAHSHAH!!
I feel so bad. Not only is my job shit but my relationship with jason is shakey too. I've felt So bad about the situation at work, I've noticed that lately I've wanted to make love alot more. 
I know this is because I feel like shit. Make love makes me feel better. Well apparently Jason has noticed too and now he's started to refuse...
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I know this is because I feel like shit. Make love makes me feel better. Well apparently Jason has noticed too and now he's started to refuse... Read More
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charlize:
I didn't realize you were a twin. I have always wondered what it would be like. Are you close? I bet you get questions like this all the time! Twins are just fascinating for some reason. I hope that you feel better! Everything has to get better sometime, right?
charlize:
Can they do that? At your job? I thought that they can't get mad if you have doctor's note. I guess every state is different, but that sounds shitty. Your boss sounds like a jackass! I hope that things work out with your husband. Have you talked to him yet? It would be good to try to talk things out. Easier said than done, though. I am sorry that you have to go through this. I don't understand why shit like this happens to good people with good intentions and love in their heart. So unfortunate! I have this friend that makes horrible decisions and gets herself in all kinds of messes, but she always ends up okay. I have always tried to be healthy and take care of my body and I need all this surgery. So crazy. That's life. Oh, and I am going to be going to American University. It is in Washington DC. I am double majoring in journalism and French/European Studies. I am really excited...and terrified. It is so far away and there are so many people that I love here. I am going to make the best I can out of the time I have left after I heal from this surgery. Your a nurse, right? Have you thought about looking for a new job where you might be happier? That is another thing that is easier said then done! I hope things are going better!
I have this friend that makes horrible decisions and gets herself in all kinds of messes, but she always ends up okay. I have always tried to be healthy and take care of my body and I need all this surgery. So crazy. That's life. Oh, and I am going to be going to American University. It is in Washington DC. I am double majoring in journalism and French/European Studies. I am really excited...and terrified. It is so far away and there are so many people that I love here. I am going to make the best I can out of the time I have left after I heal from this surgery. Your a nurse, right? Have you thought about looking for a new job where you might be happier? That is another thing that is easier said then done! I hope things are going better! 