Things have gotten pretty crappy again.... 
I don't really know what to do to make myself feel better. I'm just so sad. I've been drinking alot lately. Everynight for about 3 weeks. I never thought that I would get to a point again where I would relapse and I would have no one to go to. to help me. It's like I've gone full circle and I'm back where I started 7 years ago. I don't know where I'm going to go in life next. I don't know what I want anymore. I don't know what I really even know what I need. I've been having some really crazy thoughts. I've been thinking that if I was just dead things would be better for everyone. I don't want to kill myself I just wish a bus would come and run me over.....
I don't really know what to do to make myself feel better. I'm just so sad. I've been drinking alot lately. Everynight for about 3 weeks. I never thought that I would get to a point again where I would relapse and I would have no one to go to. to help me. It's like I've gone full circle and I'm back where I started 7 years ago. I don't know where I'm going to go in life next. I don't know what I want anymore. I don't know what I really even know what I need. I've been having some really crazy thoughts. I've been thinking that if I was just dead things would be better for everyone. I don't want to kill myself I just wish a bus would come and run me over.....VIEW 3 of 3 COMMENTS
im so stressed,no friends are around any more
my car accident injury goes no where
my insides get worse,my eating is none
stress makes you all messed up
we used to do things,now school and no alone time
friends arent around,which makes for no socialization
it seems sometimes ruts are made and theres no way out,and nothing goes right,i hear you loud and clear
you run out of positive things to say and do
im stuck at home all day with these thoughts cant work cause of my injury.makes more stress to come
meditation is good,calms the mind
yoga or just a good hobby
im in a rut since a year or more with this accident crap
hang in there,call some friends
laugh,dont drink yourself away from the problems
be stronger than that
hey if we(husband)and i come up to lacrosse,brother lives there,i will let u know lets hook up for sure
stay cool it will be ok
talk to me anytime
love
[Edited on Oct 25, 2004 10:58PM]
Your mother still gives tours of the house? That's so cool!
I bet there are a lot of stories in that house. I can't believe they didn't tell you about the hauntings.
What else has happened in that house? Did you ever work there during the night? Creepy!
I'm so sorry you're down, sweetie.
Have you been keeping busy? I know from experience that if you leave your mind idle you can easily fall into depression.
Which is why I started doing yoga and sewing. It's kept my mind working and the depression just slowly starts to fade away. My mom calls it the House Wife Syndrome.
I've stopped worrying about what I'm doing with my life, and where I'm going to end up, and just started doing things I enjoy-and the moment. Right now is all that matters.
What would you rather be doing? What would you like to do?
And don't forget, alcohol is a depressant. It just makes things worse. (I did the same thing)
Take care sweetie, and try to think positive.