happycherries

It's crazy one of my best friends joined the Mariens and he is on leave for 10 days. It was soo mindblowing to see him. We spent and afternoon together drinking beers and talking about the last few months of our lives. He really made me think about what I wanted to do with my life and what I actually did with it. He said that he didn't want to be stuck in LaCrosse doing a job that he could do in his sleep. He's always been the kind of person who needed to be challenged. When he said that it made me think about what I'm doing here.. I'm mean really anyone could be an orderly and most people take this job as and in to the hospital, to later go on and be a nurse or a PA or even a doctor. Did I really think that I was going to be an orderly for the rest of my life?? I just feel like I alway tried to mold myself to be something big and now essentialy I'm this housewife who also works fulltime in a meaningless job. I thought that being an orderly made me happy but what do I really do?? Pick up heavy people and push them around all day. I know that I want to do something more improtant I just don't know what it is. BLAH!