For in life we bare the cup of what is not ours.
Our eyes feast on morsils of experience and bitterness of many broken, somewhat shattered dreams.
Weeping away at the sunset is a painted picture of what is to come...The downfall and darkness of greeds.
While still all the poor eat each others shame, the rich enjoy the taste of a poor mans sorrow....
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Our eyes feast on morsils of experience and bitterness of many broken, somewhat shattered dreams.
Weeping away at the sunset is a painted picture of what is to come...The downfall and darkness of greeds.
While still all the poor eat each others shame, the rich enjoy the taste of a poor mans sorrow....
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How I left....
Again, I wake up from a slumber waking up next to my biggest nightmare. Why am I spending so much time with her, bringing wedding bells into the picture definitely does not make life more bareable. She is not the one for me.. Well, I'm off to make another breakfast where my servings ar much too large. As I am starting to...
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Again, I wake up from a slumber waking up next to my biggest nightmare. Why am I spending so much time with her, bringing wedding bells into the picture definitely does not make life more bareable. She is not the one for me.. Well, I'm off to make another breakfast where my servings ar much too large. As I am starting to...
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armsxlikexblades:
whoa. If half of the men out there would have the cahones to do that there'd be alot less bitterness in them. My best freind needs to do exactly that.
Well, I have not been on for a while it seems that drinking saki and ginseng wine has been much of a consuming time. For the most part I am at least trying to keep busy..ha. Wow, I noticed that school seems to be driving me a little crazy especially with midterms, crappy attitudes from people and a whole lot of forgetting, all in all...
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Well, I guess it has been a while since I write yet again. Anyhow, things have been a little hectic lately especially with school kind of kicking my ass. 
For the most part things have been kind of dandy and somewhat dangerous. A few days ago, I ended up going out with some people at work to party all night long, actually till 6am, which...
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For the most part things have been kind of dandy and somewhat dangerous. A few days ago, I ended up going out with some people at work to party all night long, actually till 6am, which... Read More
Damn... I guess I have not written in a while. Anyhow, I just got done running as usual, and I have been going pretty hard with that marathon training, which I am still excited about.
Latley I also seemed to have noticed that I have been going out a whole shit load. I thought since I was going to be attending school I would be...
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Latley I also seemed to have noticed that I have been going out a whole shit load. I thought since I was going to be attending school I would be...
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idoru:
i'm living on Hill Ave. really close to the clinic just up the hill from Safeway and Godfather's where i work.
good to hear that school is going good for you. and you're marathon training? you do so much stuff!
good to hear that school is going good for you. and you're marathon training? you do so much stuff!
monsterbaby:
hey it has been a while...
I hope all is well with you.
I hope all is well with you.
Fuck yea!!!! Things have been great lately. These past couple of days have been a little hectic but over all not to bad. Also tommorrow, I have to go to orientiation for school which is actually pretty exciting for me, and then on the fouth, I start school. 
Also my friends band is playing this Saturday at the Viper Room on Sunset. Yes for "BRASS...
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monsterbaby:
*giggles* you said "butt cheeks"....
you should totally should bottle that excitment and sell it!
I am super happy for you (and your dog too)
best of luck....
you should totally should bottle that excitment and sell it!
I am super happy for you (and your dog too)
best of luck....
Fuck these days seem to be getting longer and hotter. Lately I have been thinking up just picking up after a year and heading to Spain for a year. I think I am still thiking about that one. Anyhow, I kind of been having weird days at work lately. The people I work with look at me like some kind animal....but in a good way...
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nadya:
Usually i'm against the whole "casual sex" thing but fuuuuuck.. homie just go get laid already... jeez. On your next break at work take that chick into a closet or something and get that shit out of your system... for serious.
Wow, another great day..and I am still pretty much out of crap to say. Well, yesterday was a semi-productive day. I ended up going to Ikea and buying some picture frames for some really cool photos and I also ended up buying for more cable lights to brighten my room; It is darker than a coffin in there. Anyhow, my past two days of have...
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idoru:
wow, you can clean your whole house and still feel as if you've accomplished nothing? you could come clean my house as well if it might help. 
naw, it's just that i clean so infrequently that when i actually get up the motivation to do it i do a killer job and always feel like i've accomplished something. i'll be like, "hey! check it out! the kitchen is clean! aren't you proud of me?" i guess just because it isn't daily routine that it feels like a big thing.
naw, it's just that i clean so infrequently that when i actually get up the motivation to do it i do a killer job and always feel like i've accomplished something. i'll be like, "hey! check it out! the kitchen is clean! aren't you proud of me?" i guess just because it isn't daily routine that it feels like a big thing.
armsxlikexblades:
Hanz...I work at the Red Cross in Whittier...if you think you're interested in spending some time helping less fortunate people...I can definately hook you up with some resources to volunteer your time and / or employment with organizations that do just that. You can even do something with the red cross if you have the time and energy...but most don't...and I hardly do.
What is truly important in my life? I'm torn on this...because I think like you, I'm divided between what I want. There is this part of me that craves the social norm of stable job (that I probably hate) a big house (that I can barely afford) and loving wife and kids and the whole shebang...
the other part of me wants desperately to make a mark on the world. I don't define what that mark is...and hopefully it can be anything as little as influencing one person who goes on to do great things to doing something large and meaningful. The point is...when it comes to the "altruistic" type of things that I'd like to do for others to "make a difference" I am trying more and more to do them with the little things in my life...because a lot of little things equal alot....as opposed to the one great thing...that may be almost impossible to accomplish alone. Did any of that make any sense?
And yeah...as far as the horniness goes....you simply horny. That happens. Go get a girlfreind....they like to help you out with that stuff.
What is truly important in my life? I'm torn on this...because I think like you, I'm divided between what I want. There is this part of me that craves the social norm of stable job (that I probably hate) a big house (that I can barely afford) and loving wife and kids and the whole shebang...
the other part of me wants desperately to make a mark on the world. I don't define what that mark is...and hopefully it can be anything as little as influencing one person who goes on to do great things to doing something large and meaningful. The point is...when it comes to the "altruistic" type of things that I'd like to do for others to "make a difference" I am trying more and more to do them with the little things in my life...because a lot of little things equal alot....as opposed to the one great thing...that may be almost impossible to accomplish alone. Did any of that make any sense?
And yeah...as far as the horniness goes....you simply horny. That happens. Go get a girlfreind....they like to help you out with that stuff.
Wow, the past couple of days have been really fun and exciting. I definitley got my self in some adventures, and discussions. I think I also need to kind of relax or else I am going to find myself getting out of control like before. It is actually kind of weird how I have slowdowns in fun, then all of a sudden it's this rollercoaster...
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monsterbaby:
Your entries have been rather um "deep" (lack of a better term) these days.
Now you're making me think....
Shesh, I wish I had something better to say....give me time.
Now you're making me think....
Shesh, I wish I had something better to say....give me time.
You know...I really never noticed how much time can change people in a split of a second. I noticed that when I was in Washington, things did not seem to change at all until the moment I almost got married and left. Then at that point, my perception of life and many situations started to form in different directions. I noticed that there are other...
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armsxlikexblades:
Friends are hard man...particularly since most of our friendships are very shallow. You're right on.
Everybody wants a friend but nobody wants to be a friend. I think some people are afraid of expectations and commitments (i.e. strings) that come from complicating their lives with others. It is sad.
Maybe the best way to find friendship is to flip it...In order to have a friend...you MUST first BE a friend. I dunno.
Anyway...DUDE...you find me info on that testicle donation thing and I'll give you a finders fee. I only need one ball...ya know? haha.
PS...I hear good things about CHOMP sushi in fullerton.
Everybody wants a friend but nobody wants to be a friend. I think some people are afraid of expectations and commitments (i.e. strings) that come from complicating their lives with others. It is sad.
Maybe the best way to find friendship is to flip it...In order to have a friend...you MUST first BE a friend. I dunno.
Anyway...DUDE...you find me info on that testicle donation thing and I'll give you a finders fee. I only need one ball...ya know? haha.
PS...I hear good things about CHOMP sushi in fullerton.
but I am one of those people who is always caring about their(his) feelings, one can forget about themselves
Don't make me worry now...
Update so we all know that you are doing fine.