Monday Mar 29, 2010

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For the first time in a long time, the anniversary of my rape passed, and I almost didn't notice. It was strange. Even now, almost 2 weeks later, it's surreal to think I could go through the day, and not even think about what had happened to me.

I guess this is what healing feels like?
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mildots:
*hugs* That is good to hear kiss
avaadora:
hope all is well

time heals..it really does.... and from the sound of it seems like it is fading for you.....

Thursday Mar 11, 2010

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small, simple safe price.
rise the wake and carry me
with all of my regrets.
this is not a small cut that scabs
and dries, and flakes, and heals.
and i am not afraid to die.
i'm not afraid to bleed, and fuck, and fight.
i want the pain of payment.
what's left, but a section of pigmy-size cuts,
much like a slew of a...
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cyanide81:
i didnt listen to their newest album, but yeah. i love me some used
mildots:



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Friday Feb 26, 2010

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So.... Um.

I just spent the last 5/6 hours in the ER.

I've been having really horrendous pains the last couple days, in my left arm, and in my chest. Today, they kind of tapered to a point where it hurt so much, I literally felt as if I was dying. So, I unfortunately, had to cut my visit with Anthony short, and he drove...
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avaadora:
hey lady..iv missed ya....i finally got the internet back up and my own cell phone, iv missed so much....

anyway, i had that same fucked up problem on Halloween! it lasted 4 days on on that forth day i went the the ER because like you said, it felt like i was dying. i was so scared....

then after all the bs test they come back put a shot in my ass and tell me its acid reflux...then send me on my way (even thought it still hurt really bad) and it didn't go away for days afterword....

yeah it was a scary situation..and after that anytime i have the slightest chest pain i get scared its gonna happen again...

yeah stomach problems suck...

Thursday Feb 18, 2010

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So, I was thinking about it, and these are my Stats. True to Dungeons & Dragons form.

STR 10
DEX 13
CON 9
INT 16
WIS 13
CHA 15

What are yours, and what do you think of mine from what you know of me?
sovereign:
im a little stoked about this...
aconite:
I wish I knew what was going on here... hmmph. confused

Thursday Feb 18, 2010

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So, when I have money, I think I'm gonna get my nipples pierced, as well as my other nostril.

That's all. Oh. And I saw Anthony again today, and we talked around downtown SR. And it was good. And I love him. And he bought me a romance novel, because I read all the books I have at my Dad's.
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mildots:
Your a champ smile
cyanide81:
first time i've gotten one like that lol. well, its actually the "second notice" of this one. ive gotten the "save the nigerian prince" ones before

Monday Feb 15, 2010

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I've lost a little bit of weight lately, from living with my father who counts calories fucking religiously, but its not much weight. >< I really need to get out of the house, and start walking around, but it hurts so much.

There's something wrong with my hip, because it hurts like hell after walking like, 100 feet. And then it won't stop hurting until...
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dryad:
glad you guys got to see each other.
ohmygil:
Don't belittle it, every little bit counts!

Wednesday Feb 10, 2010

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ABOUT FAMOUS MEN WHO GIVE ME A GIRL-BONER. THESE WILL BE IN ORDER OF WHO GIVES ME THE LARGEST BONER, CAUSE I SAID SO.


  • JONATHAN RHYS-MYERS
  • Jensen Ackles (cause Supernatural is awesome) / Michael Shanks (cause i'm a total Stargate dork)
  • Milo Ventimiglia
  • Jonathan Kroppmann (he's a male model, and i consider him famous. cause ... yeah.)
  • Jeffery Dean Morgan / Johnny Depp
  • David Wenham...
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bonney:
Sorry about the Bush visual, it's haunting me, too.
bonney:
JRM is too hot for his own good. And the "we are not amused"? I was totally referencing that episode!

Thursday Feb 04, 2010

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Time for a new blog. My dad got me that bus pass, only he's kind of an idiot, and doesn't understand how the bus system works, so i have to walk almost 2 miles to get to the bus stop that will actually get me to where Anthony is. Cause the bus stop that's near my dad's place doesn't honor the bus pass my dad...
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Sunday Jan 31, 2010

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Starting to feel better. About myself, and definitely about my relationship with Anthony.

I still miss him, of course. We don't get to see each other everyday, but it is about a once a week thing. Though we saw each other several times this week.

My dad says he'd going to buy me a bus pass, so we'll see how that goes.

Anyway. I am...
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pomfelo:
Hooray! kiss
kyote:
You should totally Say Mutipass every time you get on the bus using it.

Tuesday Jan 26, 2010

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I might have a small obsession with Brent Corrigan. ><
pomfelo:
Is everything about gay porn with you? biggrin
el_bandito:
Far from it. Just letting you know you got people out here that can relate.wink
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