hannelore

Haven't been on in a while, haven't really felt like it. It just reminds me too much of why I've been feeling so depressed lately.

01. I know it was my fault for being a nosy girlfriend.
02. It's been three months, and I still feel paranoid about stuff.
03. I constantly get horrible dreams where he leaves me, or
cheats, or doesn't save me from whatever terrible thing is
happening to me in that specific dream.
04. He never left me in dreams before, he always saved me in
dreams before, he never cheated.
05. I'm afraid that even though he says he won't, my inability to
let this go, even when he has, will cause him to stop loving
me, and force him to leave me, well, make me leave, since
i live with him.

I don't know what to do anymore.