I was such a bitch to Kyote last night. All he wanted was to help me, and I could hardly stand to have him touch me, so much as hold me. I couldn't even tell him what was wrong. I've always had a problem telling people out loud what happened to me. I think the only person I actually spoke to, and told, was my mom. Other then that, it's so much easier when I don't have to voice what happened to me. I can write it down, type it, text it, anything that doesn't involve opening my mouth.
Which made last night so hard for me, I couldn't tell him why I was upset, just that I was. I couldn't explain why I wanted him to hold me, but I wouldn't let him. When it mattered most, I couldn't come out and tell the person I love, "I was raped." I wish I could have.
Which made last night so hard for me, I couldn't tell him why I was upset, just that I was. I couldn't explain why I wanted him to hold me, but I wouldn't let him. When it mattered most, I couldn't come out and tell the person I love, "I was raped." I wish I could have.
Sometimes it's just really hard to let those emotions out. They're just so painful you wanna hold them in. I don't think Kyote would be mad at you. It's something that people understand. It's a traumatic thing to go through.
I don't really know you, but I believe you're a strong woman and it takes a lot to say what you have. And I respect that.