I feel like I'm betraying everyone like me. I was raped when I was ten, and I can't help but be turned on by all thoughts of rape. I feel utterly disgusting, I've never told anyone, but its these thoughts that usually make me sad. I've been afraid of people finding out and thinking I'm a freak, but it's been getting me so depressed lately. The anniversary of when it happened is coming up in a few days, and I've been getting more and more depressed lately. I thought I'd gotten passed dwelling on the past, but I guess I haven't. Help me, please.
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mildots:
*hugs* I think that Marvel gave some great advice. People won't think your a freak dear.
_felix_:
Oh honey listen, you're not disgusting. however, I assume that your rape was probably your first sexual experience right? And althought it was a negative and tramatic experience, you learned to associate someone having power over you with sex. It's really not unusual for you to have these feelings. ok? you are NOT a freak.