hannelore

Today's the anniversary of my uncle's death, and its hard to say this, but today, I'm not really missing him. I don't feel sorrow over his passing, but I suppose that's because I've accepted, like my father, that he committed suicide, as passively as he could. He was found early the morning of the 6th, a year ago, he'd skipped his dialysis treatment, something he knew would kill him if he skipped. My cousins dont' want to admit that's what happened, but my uncle had always said he wouldn't live passed 60. He died at 58. My dad felt odd today, my cousins both texted me telling me how helpful I've been this passed year, and I can't help but feel guilty for not missing him. For understanding that where he is, is so much better then where we are now.

I don't know, besides the anniversary, I've been doing okay, slowly submerging myself back into the world of SG. i feel horrible for leaving it, and being a lurking little bitch. ><


KyoTe makes my life warm and cozy. Be nice to him in appreciation of how awesome he is to me.