I feel so deeply, not just love, but all ranges of emotions. It really scares me sometimes.
I went to sleep at 9 last night, with KyoTe. Apparently, I woke up around two and said sleepily "we're sleeping. i'm uncomfortable." And then when KyoTe suggested we lay longways on the bed, I said "yeah," and moved, and fell back asleep. I've been up since 9 this morning.
what the fuck. why was I so sleepy last night?
what the fuck. why was I so sleepy last night?
issue_:
oh so clever.
raynne:
I get sooo sleepy sometimes like today... I kept passing out but then the phone kept ringing.
Today's the anniversary of my uncle's death, and its hard to say this, but today, I'm not really missing him. I don't feel sorrow over his passing, but I suppose that's because I've accepted, like my father, that he committed suicide, as passively as he could. He was found early the morning of the 6th, a year ago, he'd skipped his dialysis treatment, something he...
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lycan_predator:
sorry to hear that. now im depressed
raynne:
sorry to hear but remember acceptance is important and at least you know he is in a better place
Not really that active on here, mostly just lurking like a jerk. I feel bad about it, but I've been feeling pretty down lately. I don't know why I get so sad, but I do, and it pretty much sucks balls. KyoTe helps to keep it away, he's so good for me, but I'm sort of scared of the day when my funny moods start...
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raynne:
Feel ebtter... you deserve to be happy! 
avaadora:
its hard being down, and some times you just cant help but feel down...
but as long as you keep your loved ones close and keep them in mind when things seem gloomy. doing so will give you hope...a chance at happyness.
just keep that in mind...
by the way whats wrong..? i miss your presence on the boards...hope to see ya soon
but as long as you keep your loved ones close and keep them in mind when things seem gloomy. doing so will give you hope...a chance at happyness.
just keep that in mind...
by the way whats wrong..? i miss your presence on the boards...hope to see ya soon
Therapy with my father went well. I ended up telling him about my desire to be a SuicideGirl, and he didn't have anything inappropriate to say, nor was he angry. It felt good to tell him, and have his support, but it only reminds me how much my mom will be against this decision.
KyoTe is amazing. End of story. He's my sweetheart.
KyoTe is amazing. End of story. He's my sweetheart.
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mogwai_:
glad everything turned out well.
i can't stop watching Issue_'s comment...
i can't stop watching Issue_'s comment...
avaadora:
i second casper on that...its very distracting!
anyway, i glad everything went well, thats a very brave thing to do..telling your father that.
me on the other hand. my parents dont know about what i do, and they will never know. they wouldnt get it, so i just dont bother...
on the other hand my family who is closer to my age,,,,brother, cousins, and what not they all know about it...(i really dont like it that my brother knows about it but ohh well)
as for kyote...i bet he is the coolest..ya got yourself a sweet funny man.. your a lucky gal
anyway, i glad everything went well, thats a very brave thing to do..telling your father that.
me on the other hand. my parents dont know about what i do, and they will never know. they wouldnt get it, so i just dont bother...
on the other hand my family who is closer to my age,,,,brother, cousins, and what not they all know about it...(i really dont like it that my brother knows about it but ohh well)
as for kyote...i bet he is the coolest..ya got yourself a sweet funny man.. your a lucky gal
Feeling mucho better, both in heart and in tummy. I'm sorda worried about tomorrow, it's gonna be the first time I actually talk to a therapist about my dad's charges and arrest and stuff. I mean, I went to a therapist when this whole bologna sammich was made, but I never talked to her about how I felt about it, I guess. I was a...
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mogwai_:
strength to you.
i can't imagine dealing with the position you are in. I do however hope that you find (found) something good and possibly therapeutic out of it.
i can't imagine dealing with the position you are in. I do however hope that you find (found) something good and possibly therapeutic out of it.
I don't feel very good. My heart feels funny.
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kyote:
Well im just gonna have to see what i can do about that Sugarbuns....
bunni:
Thanks for the lovely comment on my set "Summer's Gone"!
<3 Bunni
<3 Bunni
I got really sick last night. I'm wondering if maybe the pain from the tattooing made me feel sick? Or if the drink I got afterwards gave me food poisoning, because I didn't have all the symptoms of food poisoning. I didn't really have cramps, just my belly hurt, and I didn't puke, just had to go sit on the potty for a long time....
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abbott:
You'll be okay, dearest. It sounds like you have a bug coming on, or maybe the beginning of the flu? Feel better, though, ily.
issue_:
awe...i hope you feel better!
OMG. Pain. KyoTe says I teared up, but I honestly don't remember my eyes doing such a thing, so I think he's trying to down play my total badassness. Though, I did complain a bunch, and was basically a total bitch about it. I held his hand through pretty much the whole thing, and made ugly faces, of which you will see some. So, I...
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kyote:
Heh her tattoo artist is the guy who did my first tattoo, i thought it was funny
abbott:
WONDERFULNESS!!!
I luh you Donner!
I luh you Donner!
So I went to Zebra in Berkeley today, and got an appointment for my first ink. I'm really excited and a little nervous/scared. I'm not really a fan of needles other then piercing needles, so I'm sort of hoping I don't pull a bitch move and pussy out the moment James puts the tattoo gun over my wrist. But I'm gonna be going back to...
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avaadora:
where are you getting the ink? depending on where it is its not gonna hurt that bad, the worst spot for me was the upper forarm by the elbow..ohh man i was dying...but you should be fine..te,he....what are you getting?
and yeah...i sorta have that effect on people who see that movie.....cause im a big ol'dork
and yeah...i sorta have that effect on people who see that movie.....cause im a big ol'dork
avaadora:
what ya getting on the wrist?
i have my grandmothers name (Ava) tattooed on my wrist..and it didnt hurt me at all...but i guess some people have different pain reactions to different spots...
i have my grandmothers name (Ava) tattooed on my wrist..and it didnt hurt me at all...but i guess some people have different pain reactions to different spots...
It's been a few days without intarwebz, and so much has changed, you have no clue. I'm just happy to be back. Missed all of you.
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avaadora:
idk..the guy just had this creeper feel to him..i just didnt feel right..he was in the other room playing games on the computer while his g/f took my pictures...i did my best to not let it get to me..it was hard...
embeth:
Hey Cutie, good to see you back. I've been a bit out of the loop too. Is it just me or is the hew mysg shitting everyone. I can't even open pm. Anyway, see you in silliness 
boycars not so confusing as they previously seemed. and very fun to hang out with. for three days straight.
issue_:
hello??? uhm yes i miss you two on the silliness board.
wahhh..
wahhh..
avaadora:
i second that...where the hell have you been..do you know how sad your absences has made me?
its just not the same with out ya guys
its just not the same with out ya guys
Wonderfully frightening, innit?