Despite the fact that I know he loves me...
I don't feel like I'm the one he really wants.
I don't feel like I'm the one he really wants.
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shaggyvixe:
Awww thats so sweet
raynne:
awww
mildots:
I think that its ok but I agree with you on the space.
I need to take a break from SG. The jealousy I feel towards certain members has gone too far, and it really isn't healthy for me. I love you all, but certain members are causing me to second-guess Kyote's feelings towards me. I hate that it's come to this, because I really do love SG, but I'm not in a place right now where...
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My Life's To-Do List:
Okay, yeah, I'm totally stealing Marvel's idea/blog idea, but, she's a smart girly, and imitation is flattery in some form. Plus I've been meaning to come up with a list of things I've wanted to do for a while, and be able to check it off. So, here goes. If I've done it at the time this was posted, it'll have...
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Okay, yeah, I'm totally stealing Marvel's idea/blog idea, but, she's a smart girly, and imitation is flattery in some form. Plus I've been meaning to come up with a list of things I've wanted to do for a while, and be able to check it off. So, here goes. If I've done it at the time this was posted, it'll have...
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mildots:
Sounds like a plan.
mildots:
Cute shoes 
marvel:
Whoa... those are cute.
I like to online window shop, as I never have money
I like to online window shop, as I never have money
So, I know what I want for my birthday this year. This. I've been wanting one for about 5 years,
Anthony thinks it's creepy, and he never wants to see it, but he says I can have one as long as I keep it under the bed. And in a box. And never take it out when he's around. It's a tad expensive, but...
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Anthony thinks it's creepy, and he never wants to see it, but he says I can have one as long as I keep it under the bed. And in a box. And never take it out when he's around. It's a tad expensive, but...
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MAHNAHNAHNAHNAHHHHH.
I'm super excited, I'm gonna be getting new converse and stuffs. they'll be awesome. yay me.
I'm super excited, I'm gonna be getting new converse and stuffs. they'll be awesome. yay me.
marvel:
Woot!
I was such a bitch to Kyote last night. All he wanted was to help me, and I could hardly stand to have him touch me, so much as hold me. I couldn't even tell him what was wrong. I've always had a problem telling people out loud what happened to me. I think the only person I actually spoke to, and told, was my...
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nay_____:
It's a hard thing to talk about. No one expects you to just be able to talk about it like it was nothing.
Sometimes it's just really hard to let those emotions out. They're just so painful you wanna hold them in. I don't think Kyote would be mad at you. It's something that people understand. It's a traumatic thing to go through.
I don't really know you, but I believe you're a strong woman and it takes a lot to say what you have. And I respect that.
Sometimes it's just really hard to let those emotions out. They're just so painful you wanna hold them in. I don't think Kyote would be mad at you. It's something that people understand. It's a traumatic thing to go through.
I don't really know you, but I believe you're a strong woman and it takes a lot to say what you have. And I respect that.
mildots:
He will understand whether you tell him or not. 
*hugs*
*hugs*Nine years to the day, to the hour ... I want to die right now. I don't want to be here.
marvel:
(((hug)))
You're beautiful, you're loved & you'll get through this ♥
You're beautiful, you're loved & you'll get through this ♥
mildots:
*hugs* YOU'll get through this
shaggyvixe:
nuh uh
mildots:
Not you 
I feel like I'm betraying everyone like me. I was raped when I was ten, and I can't help but be turned on by all thoughts of rape. I feel utterly disgusting, I've never told anyone, but its these thoughts that usually make me sad. I've been afraid of people finding out and thinking I'm a freak, but it's been getting me so depressed lately....
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mildots:
*hugs* I think that Marvel gave some great advice. People won't think your a freak dear.
_felix_:
Oh honey listen, you're not disgusting. however, I assume that your rape was probably your first sexual experience right? And althought it was a negative and tramatic experience, you learned to associate someone having power over you with sex. It's really not unusual for you to have these feelings. ok? you are NOT a freak.
I think that if he didn't really want you he wouldn't be with you, but he is with you.