34hours until vacation...
werd
26hrs...
lately? specifically now. all of "this" weighs heavy. all of the little stuff you know? the everyday shit, seems like a planet of whoa pushing me. square between my shoulder blades. occupying 2/3's of my mind-set.
i just dont want to be "here"
not "not here" as in i wish i were dead *BLAM!*
"not here": as in.... not in my set of circumstances? "not here" in this fucking chair... at this fucking desk job, living this fucking life... right now. i have this overwhelming desire to bone out, leave this everyday bull shit exzistance that i have carved out for myself and... shit, i dont know.
move the New Zealand and live on a house boat?
even the ever approching vacation i am taking seems a big waist of time.
its tuff. i miss my girl. egghmm my EX-girl. i still love her. i really do. does she know that? doubt she cares.
i feel like running away. why? i know i will get past this? i am just having trouble copeing i guess?
i need to either break down and cry my ass off or...
get laid.
anyways.
24.5 hours
7hours
5hours
2.5....
werd
26hrs...
lately? specifically now. all of "this" weighs heavy. all of the little stuff you know? the everyday shit, seems like a planet of whoa pushing me. square between my shoulder blades. occupying 2/3's of my mind-set.
i just dont want to be "here"
not "not here" as in i wish i were dead *BLAM!*
"not here": as in.... not in my set of circumstances? "not here" in this fucking chair... at this fucking desk job, living this fucking life... right now. i have this overwhelming desire to bone out, leave this everyday bull shit exzistance that i have carved out for myself and... shit, i dont know.
move the New Zealand and live on a house boat?
even the ever approching vacation i am taking seems a big waist of time.
its tuff. i miss my girl. egghmm my EX-girl. i still love her. i really do. does she know that? doubt she cares.
i feel like running away. why? i know i will get past this? i am just having trouble copeing i guess?
i need to either break down and cry my ass off or...
get laid.
anyways.
24.5 hours
7hours
5hours
2.5....
and yes sometimes just going to cry makes things better.
live in the present. not the future not the past. if you're not happy with the present...change it. vacation will be good for you. just breathe.