hamtastic

I can't tell if my expectations of my photography are getting higher or if I suck more. lol

mmm bloggy blog.

I am so sick of everything right now, but I dunno. FUCK. I just know all I fracking want is a nice girl that isn't a fucking tard to chill with.

I was talking to my ex, we were talking about why I like girls with tattoos. we determined that its girls with a lot of visible tattoos have a "don't give...
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Today was one of those days where you wish you could take bits of it and extend them into more cuz they were so awesome. Just talking to people that I haven't in a while, and never have, and it was awesome, and they are great people.

It was also a day that proved to me that girls with tattoos lean towards awesome more often...
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these are killing me. haha

I dunno what it is, aside from its Dita, and Dita is hot.

So, I have this ex, that I always had fun with. I can't find someone to have fun with since her. Anyone in SoCal wanna have fun?

I need some variety, I need to do something other than take pics at weddings. I wish I knew someone that was like, a beginning model then we could split the fees at the studio down here I shot at a while back and do something interesting. Though it would be more rad to do something with SOME natural light, but whatever. I just wanna...
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FUCK i am beat. Had a friend's birthday party for a bit today (that had my ex at it that I still get that funny feeling around) and then had a wedding until 9:30.

The day is being shaken off with rum, oj, and grenadine. I don't know if its a real drink or not, but I like it.

Man, i just have too many things going on right now. I almost lost it today. Work isn't at all what I sold, so I was pissed about that. Some stuff with an old friend/ex. My photography is keeping me super busy, and my girlfriend and I are just distant relations it seems now.

I am just going crazy, over worked, and I took tomorrow...
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I hate that even jsut the sight of my ex's name gets my heart all a flutter, even just a little, still.

Dear someone more awesome than her, come hang out with me! lol

*shrug* oh well.

I need a vacation, and this weekend I DON'T FUCKING GET ONE!!

I hate my life, but love it, right now.

Hooray I have nothing that I have to do anything until this afternoon! a whole morning off! WONDERFUL!

lol

I better be careful I might get sick of hauling my damn cameras around haha. Well I doubt that would happen.

New job starts tomorrow. I hope it doesn't suck.

Last day on the last job, sad, but then spent the afternoon on my friend's boat. what an awesome place to sit and chill on a kinda crappy day when you are in a kinda crappy place. I need a boat.