It's been a long while since I've posted anything here. I've just been trying to get my life back together. I've changed jobs, made a few new friends, lost a few along the way. I've just completed another holiday season alone. The cold nights that beg for someone to be there have as usual, found no one. I've grown a little colder inside, and strengthened the idea that this existence is all I'll ever know. I've grown a bir more hollow inside. Shunning all ideas of companionship to numb the pain of my loneliness. I'm just coasting through the day waiting for night,and eventually the next day. Trying not to realize the total failures of my life. Trying to ignore the bleakness of my reality. Struggling to push myself through another pointless day for whatever reason I decide to continue. I feel old and useless these days. My best days a far distant memory. My glory nothing more than tales. I'm trying to discover my purpose. Realize whatever small amount of potential I have left. I'm just losing hope. Losing faith. Losing my way. I feel trapped. I don't know where I go from here...
