halstingdon

ok, i've come to the conclusion that i'm wasting my life. but it's ok, cause at this point, it's nothing to worry about, and i've got all sorts of time to get motivated and get shit together. Purdue was such a giant fuck up on my part and i won't let the same thing happen with depaul. i'm going to set aside time to study and actually learn what i'm being taught. i know that i'm really smart, but unfortunately, i'm too damn lazy to do anything about it. up until now. i've decided to apply myself and actually try to be successful. hopefully i can get that internship i've been thinking about and get a career started. but before that, i gotta think about school. and also scripts. i may not be the best, or most original writer in the world, but when it comes to dialogue, i'm surprisingly good. that's a start. as long as i have that to work with, i can build from there. i plan on finishing the scripts to those short films soon and start working on the vampire script again (a project which i've ignored for way too long).

and hey, if i'm turning shit around mentally, why not physically? if john really wants to make that kung fu movie, i don't want to make his job harder by having him cast me in a role and be completely out of shape. come thanksgiving, i want to have lost at least 20 pounds and start taking care of myself.

and all i have left to say is, "where the fuck did this sudden explosion of determination come from?"
a good question.

i was watching the last episode of Angel and was marvelling at all of the dialogue and just the way Whedon put everything together to make such an incredible story. i realized, if i kept doing what i'm doing now, i'm never gonna be able to do what i want in life. i'm never gonna be half as successful as him if i don't try. so, here we are.

and to end this entry (which has probably been the most boring thing anyone's ever read), i will share with you possibly my favorite quote from the entire 5 year run of Angel...

Hamilton: "Why do you keep fighting? You signed away your Shansu, there's nothing left in the deal for you."
Angel: "People who don't care about anything will never understand the people who do."
Hamilton: "Yeah, but we won't care."