Friday Apr 04, 2003

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would you still want me when i'm not myself
or when im acting like someone else
suppose i said youre my saving grace
im always searching for your face

nenia:
i relate to many of your words, far too often.

Thursday Apr 03, 2003

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i would hold you, even as you stab me.
misha9999999:
just the right person... hold me. I need to stab someone...
have you ever seen the "Piano Teacher"? speaking of
stabbing... i'm just reading through your profile again, and
your "into" section is a description of someone I could fall
in love with... I hope it isn't you.

Wednesday Apr 02, 2003

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i wanna kiss you so bad
its nearly all i can taste
it makes me beyond mad
time shouldn't be wasted
i feel u all around me
essence lingering in the air
close my eyes, you're all i see
a gracious and loving stare
from across a crowded room
your smooth hand brushes mine
you'll be in my arms soon
later... but in good time


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mistressmissy:
yay for poems
misha9999999:
when the wall is up, it will not have any doors or
windows for that matter... I want someone to brake their
head when they crush into me...

Monday Mar 31, 2003

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good things come to those who wait. but time is relative so that could be forever.
mistressmissy:
and the waiting is the hardest part

Sunday Mar 30, 2003

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though i know
she will only break my heart
love her I must
mistressmissy:
and now and excerpt from my fav kill hannah song.

she crashed like an atom bomb
and said, "we can't live forever.
one day i'll see you around.
i dreamt that we disappeared, so
i just gotta do it
so no one can touch me now."
mistressmissy:
yea i was going to call him and make him listen to how i feel but i think its better if i just stop talking to him all together. good plan mel.

Saturday Mar 29, 2003

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i know she knows its not right
i guess i'll make it up next time

Friday Mar 28, 2003

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the simple lack of their presence is more then most peoples' entire existance.
misha9999999:
tonight I might watch True Romance... i've never seen it
before...

Wednesday Mar 26, 2003

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i want to love first and live incidentally.
unfortunately i have no one to love. or rather the one i love doesn't love me "like that". it seems strange that i long for something that has caused me such suffering. i suppose we always want what we can't have. and somehow don't appreciate it when we do.
misha9999999:
man, I read something in Print magazine last night... that
totally depressed me. I mean one of the most depressing
things I've ever read. I need to write it down and post in your
journal, because it parallels what you're saying so much...
or maybe it doesn't. do I even know what i'm saying?...
_____
and I don't think we want it... we're just afraid to go for the
real thing for some reason. Or maybe if we are to choose
between nothing and self-inflicted suffering, we choose
suffering. At least it's some sort of a feeling... close enough.
___

is that Matisse? of course it is, I like the hole in the heart...



[Edited on Mar 27, 2003]
mistressmissy:
i also love what i cant have. when i did have him i dont think i didnt appreciate...i couldnt believe it. why would this person want me? why me? don't they deserve to have someone better? what's so special about me? and it all seemed like this miraculous dream...until the dream ends and the nightmare of being without them begins.

Wednesday Mar 26, 2003

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tomorrow is my favorite day, because there's always tomorrow. atleast introspectively.
misha9999999:
tomorrow is always questionable. humans are not only mortal,
but mortal unexpectedly... I seem to be arguing with you
a lot lately... sorry.

[Edited on Mar 26, 2003]

Tuesday Mar 25, 2003

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i'm broken and defeated.
where's death when you need it?
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mistressmissy:
it only comes when you don't want it. sad isnt it?
mistressmissy:
thanx for the well wishing. its not that i really want it but its a good job where you just drive around so that rocks and all...and you get benefits which i need. i just really dont want to work at mcdonalds again.
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