halokixthislove

just when you think things are back to the way they use to be you forget how they were, and then your back to where you once began.
I want life to be sane.

I need your friendship, your love, like I need a hole in my head.
I find myself net picking at you, trying to pick a fight with you. Your weak mind of 'oh I shall die if I lose him..' has made my lose all respect for you. GD get over it. Its funny how you seem to care more for those who flake out...
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Did you ever have one of those weekends, the weekend that changed you? It was so great it was hard to forget?
Ya well that wasnt this weekend.
It was along time ago. I met the best people of my life, I changed alot from that weekend. These people are my soul mates.

Anyone up to see a band? In LA?
Who: Pepper
Place: El...
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My mind, life is at an all time high. How long will this last. I find myself reaching for something, but Im not sure what.
I have greedy friends who never look at the things I have done for them. They seem to care for the ones that could give a shit less about them.. How does that work?
Sometimes I think my life would...
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Im never drinking again.
Im lying. I will.. maybe tomorrow night.
Waste your life away, and watch the world stop.
I didnt know my body could feel this shitty at once, Its too early.. I cant sleep, I find it harder and harder to sleep these days. I want a human connection, TAKERS!?
My life has stopped, just for the time being. I'll only be...
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New world new space. Nothing can hold me down
Phone call*
Her "Art school?! You really think your going to go somewhere with that?"

Sam an old freind calls, Shes in Med school the one I was s'pose to go to.
Me "Yes. As a matter of fact I wil go somewhere."
Her "Boy your a laugh."

My mind is up lifting today.
Silence has been found.
New painting today.. new start.
A conplex mind is what I need. An unmarked convo needs to be had. Takers?
Enlighten me, dont change me.
I can close my eyes and remember trees, me swinging. The colors of life dance, in my retrospect of life. I cant remember yelling into the spaces of light, hoping...
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There going to be a point in my life where all I see and do will end up being a lie. Morons live.. breathing and not knowing their lifes. Dont miss judge me Im not angry only tired, tired of trying to be something more. Lying to myself has become an everyday activity. I have no regret only wishes. I feel a fix in my...
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My bleeding mind hurt to think .. I try to stop it with meds.. Nothing is working...
Do I wear a sign that says Im wise?
Im not bitter GD. Im busy..
People get mad at things I say. I tell them their weakening my mind.
Im not rude, mean, crule.. really Im nice.. just catch me on the day where the sun is high,...
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My Rampage is going to kill you someday. This is what Ive planned.
Like Ive said before I hate you, your encinving ways make me turn away from you. But at the same time I cant help but love you. This is too much for me. Now I know why people kill. It drives me mad. Seeing you, not seeing you, sittiing there acting with...
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