halokixthislove

As the years go on and as i get older; the lessons i learn and the friends i lose always seem to get harder. Just when I think i cant learn much more I'm reminded that I'm still a kid just trying to make it.. and somehow I find away to make it to the next years.. For those who still stand by my side and ones I've just met, I can say i now know what it feels like to be loved. I don't hide who I am.. I found myself once again and I am no longer ashamed of who I am nor of decisions and actions I have made through the years. And no matter what hard times that fall I know my family loves me.
To the friends that have left or are just a shadow of a picture taken long ago.. i will not forget but i will let go.. for i know that once you cared and loved but we must admit that as we go on we must leave and not hold to moment .. for dwelling is not healthy but petty. Maybe somewhere in another time or life we will each other again .. and maybe things will be better. I'm not saying goodbye but rather i cannot hold on to -for- you to come around and embrace the friendship we once shared.. i have no one words , no more love , and no support to give.. for I have given too much already -for once i have to be selfish and hold to last bit of me that is left- I hope you find what it is your looking for, and when you'd like to be apart again of my life you know where to find me.
I am not wise, I am not smart.. I am not perfect.. But i know what I've learned and all i can say is.. bring it on 2008.
I finally got my new years kiss. It was worth it.