My mind, life is at an all time high. How long will this last. I find myself reaching for something, but Im not sure what.
I have greedy friends who never look at the things I have done for them. They seem to care for the ones that could give a shit less about them.. How does that work?
Sometimes I think my life would...
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I have greedy friends who never look at the things I have done for them. They seem to care for the ones that could give a shit less about them.. How does that work?
Sometimes I think my life would...
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Im never drinking again.
Im lying. I will.. maybe tomorrow night.
Waste your life away, and watch the world stop.
I didnt know my body could feel this shitty at once, Its too early.. I cant sleep, I find it harder and harder to sleep these days. I want a human connection, TAKERS!?
My life has stopped, just for the time being. I'll only be...
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Im lying. I will.. maybe tomorrow night.
Waste your life away, and watch the world stop.
I didnt know my body could feel this shitty at once, Its too early.. I cant sleep, I find it harder and harder to sleep these days. I want a human connection, TAKERS!?
My life has stopped, just for the time being. I'll only be...
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kirin_ka:
You'll only be there for a few days? As in Suicidegirls or Costa Mesa?
Takers? *raises hand*
Takers? *raises hand*
atticus1120:
if I had a dollar for everytime I swore off drinking...I'd have enough to buy a solid gold toilet to hang my head in for those wonderful times. 
New world new space. Nothing can hold me down
Phone call*
Her "Art school?! You really think your going to go somewhere with that?"
Sam an old freind calls, Shes in Med school the one I was s'pose to go to.
Me "Yes. As a matter of fact I wil go somewhere."
Her "Boy your a laugh."
Phone call*
Her "Art school?! You really think your going to go somewhere with that?"
Sam an old freind calls, Shes in Med school the one I was s'pose to go to.
Me "Yes. As a matter of fact I wil go somewhere."
Her "Boy your a laugh."
My mind is up lifting today.
Silence has been found.
New painting today.. new start.
A conplex mind is what I need. An unmarked convo needs to be had. Takers?
Enlighten me, dont change me.
I can close my eyes and remember trees, me swinging. The colors of life dance, in my retrospect of life. I cant remember yelling into the spaces of light, hoping...
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Silence has been found.
New painting today.. new start.
A conplex mind is what I need. An unmarked convo needs to be had. Takers?
Enlighten me, dont change me.
I can close my eyes and remember trees, me swinging. The colors of life dance, in my retrospect of life. I cant remember yelling into the spaces of light, hoping...
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There going to be a point in my life where all I see and do will end up being a lie. Morons live.. breathing and not knowing their lifes. Dont miss judge me Im not angry only tired, tired of trying to be something more. Lying to myself has become an everyday activity. I have no regret only wishes. I feel a fix in my...
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kirin_ka:
I am actually in the same sort of spot you are. Seriously. If you ever want to chat just let me know.
eloesstee:
hmm, life, always a fun topic, always a bad one too.
My bleeding mind hurt to think .. I try to stop it with meds.. Nothing is working...
Do I wear a sign that says Im wise?
Im not bitter GD. Im busy..
People get mad at things I say. I tell them their weakening my mind.
Im not rude, mean, crule.. really Im nice.. just catch me on the day where the sun is high,...
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Do I wear a sign that says Im wise?
Im not bitter GD. Im busy..
People get mad at things I say. I tell them their weakening my mind.
Im not rude, mean, crule.. really Im nice.. just catch me on the day where the sun is high,...
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kirin_ka:
I understand parts. Random streams of conciousness are fun.
My Rampage is going to kill you someday. This is what Ive planned.
Like Ive said before I hate you, your encinving ways make me turn away from you. But at the same time I cant help but love you. This is too much for me. Now I know why people kill. It drives me mad. Seeing you, not seeing you, sittiing there acting with...
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Like Ive said before I hate you, your encinving ways make me turn away from you. But at the same time I cant help but love you. This is too much for me. Now I know why people kill. It drives me mad. Seeing you, not seeing you, sittiing there acting with...
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kirin_ka:
Wow.
eloesstee:
hi.
'lost in pictures, lost in time.."
Things arent as simple as they use to be. Words have lost there context.
You breez though them, never fully understanding them.
Drink up your 45.
So bliss your skin is, a street angel. A child in form but so much more inside.
My days stream into an endless over warming head pounding day. I just to clear it...
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Things arent as simple as they use to be. Words have lost there context.
You breez though them, never fully understanding them.
Drink up your 45.
So bliss your skin is, a street angel. A child in form but so much more inside.
My days stream into an endless over warming head pounding day. I just to clear it...
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I want to talk but I hate simple words. If I were to write in another text youd never know what I was saying. Closed minded you are.
Hope dies last.
Await before a window, see me unbind my blind mind.
Hope dies last.
Await before a window, see me unbind my blind mind.
kirin_ka:
Seriously, are you writing this, or is this from something else? If you are writing it, I love it. 
Watch as i melt before the mirror, I forget who I am. My lost eyes look for something to hold on to. My mind drifts never really ever coming back.
Im drowning myself in others lifes, losing myself. Forgetting who i am, and where ive come from.
Im drowning myself in others lifes, losing myself. Forgetting who i am, and where ive come from.
kirin_ka:
Wow. That is hardcore. It sucks to lose yourself, or to never have known yourself. I hope you find your way back. I don't get the luchador part, but I am sure it has significance. If you can't find your way back, just exit the situation and then look to see if you left bread crumbs. 
I know meeting people off the internet may be weird and all, but there is always someone out there willing to help.
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I know meeting people off the internet may be weird and all, but there is always someone out there willing to help.
[Edited on Mar 08, 2005 5:21PM]
i must have been trippin.... just ego trippin 
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kirin_ka:
No, I go to IVC. I have gone to OCC though, and I will be going there during the summer and next year. Do you go to OCC?
kirin_ka:
I don't know if Halo in your name is for the game or an angel halo, but have you seen RedvsBlue?