Cant sleep, shoulder pain woke me up for the 3rd night in a row......
I found a procedure for osteoarthritis called hemiarthroplasty, aka ream and run. I'm don't quite undertand it. i read somewhere where there is a version where they just replace the cartilage with implants. They don't replace bone. THey then grind down or smooth out the bone. i don't know, it's a start. Only thing is, you really don't know what to believe on the internet about medical information.
i'm almost to the point of praying for the ability to fix this, even though i'm an agnostic/atheist. i watched The Atheism Tapes a few nights ago. If you are into philosophers talking about the absurdity of a god, watch it, it is sooo good. They talk to more than just philosophers, they talk to people like Arthur MIller and Steven Weinberg. Atheism Tapes bbc page
This also brings me to the zodiac and stuff like that, i don't buy it. i think one of my exes called it quits cause our signs didn't match. Lame huh? Anyway, i can somewhat get the seasons and mood due to sunlight thing, ok a little. But seasons are different in northern and southern hemispheres and you have to calculate culture, religion, mental disorders, and traumatic experiences into the equation. Who is sane right? And didn't the zodiac form in ancient greece? The one most people get from horoscopes. Talk about colonization (joke). How can european positioning to the stars be the same as some accent south american culture? I dunno that stuff reminds me too much like religion or the guy who claims he talks to people's dead family members. South Park made fun of him in an episode.
That was teh one thing that irritated the shit out of me in art school. SO many kids were all about science and truth, but they would read books dissecting the zodiac. Their defenses sounded similar to how my Christian friends/family defend the bible. Maybe i just don't know enough about it, it just sounds like BS to me. I guess i'm not a mystic in that sense.HEY I"M EMOTIONAL!
So i'm weird, i don't even like going to see bands play anymore cause the set up reminds me of going to a church. There is a congregation (the coward), choir (the band) and the preacher/god (the singer). The crowd gets all jazzed up, like Pentecostal churches. Maybe im a little bit of an iconoclasts, oh well. But there are a few bands i would run to go see if they got back together..... not naming those early 90's mid-hardcore scream/spazz/real emo bands. i don't want to look any lamer than i am.
Anyway back to my shoulder/bike. So my arm felt better today. I found a shoulder support for motocross racers. i thought about trying one. Only bad thing is, when i blew my shoulder out bad the last time i rode a motocross bike. i was 23 and the blow out was worse due to the support. It caused me to hit a tree and then blow out my pcl in my knee. I didn't clear an 80ft triple jump..... There is a major difference now though. i'm riding a road motorcycle and i'm not jumping the damn bike crazy lengths. i'm not jumping at all.
Anyway, i might be able to finish fixing my bike this week. A friend is going to help me. My forks are shot and i have to rebuild them. They were so rusted when i took them out of the bike, i had to beat them out with a wrench and hammer from the top. When they finally broke loss the wrench hit the speedometer and broke it. My luck huh?
The forks somewhat cleaned up, but there was major scaring on the tubes, so i played it safe and got new ones.
i've also decided i'm still riding no matter how bad my shoulder is, even if i have to change the bars to a non cafe style old man set. i'm doing it even if i have to take pain killers after riding.
anyway lets hope the bike will look like this agian by next week.
like i said i have to fix this shoulder problem, it is hurting after sex. um, i mean it hurts to ride a bike..... um ok know you know the real reason, but that hasn't been um for while...um.......OKAY!.......hahaha
ok no sleep the last few nights have made me crazy. i don't want to sound like a person on coke or meth. so i'm stopping.
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i may have some hope.
I found a procedure for osteoarthritis called hemiarthroplasty, aka ream and run. I'm don't quite undertand it. i read somewhere where there is a version where they just replace the cartilage with implants. They don't replace bone. THey then grind down or smooth out the bone. i don't know, it's a start. Only thing is, you really don't know what to believe on the internet about medical information.
i'm almost to the point of praying for the ability to fix this, even though i'm an agnostic/atheist. i watched The Atheism Tapes a few nights ago. If you are into philosophers talking about the absurdity of a god, watch it, it is sooo good. They talk to more than just philosophers, they talk to people like Arthur MIller and Steven Weinberg. Atheism Tapes bbc page
This also brings me to the zodiac and stuff like that, i don't buy it. i think one of my exes called it quits cause our signs didn't match. Lame huh? Anyway, i can somewhat get the seasons and mood due to sunlight thing, ok a little. But seasons are different in northern and southern hemispheres and you have to calculate culture, religion, mental disorders, and traumatic experiences into the equation. Who is sane right? And didn't the zodiac form in ancient greece? The one most people get from horoscopes. Talk about colonization (joke). How can european positioning to the stars be the same as some accent south american culture? I dunno that stuff reminds me too much like religion or the guy who claims he talks to people's dead family members. South Park made fun of him in an episode.
That was teh one thing that irritated the shit out of me in art school. SO many kids were all about science and truth, but they would read books dissecting the zodiac. Their defenses sounded similar to how my Christian friends/family defend the bible. Maybe i just don't know enough about it, it just sounds like BS to me. I guess i'm not a mystic in that sense.
HEY I"M EMOTIONAL!So i'm weird, i don't even like going to see bands play anymore cause the set up reminds me of going to a church. There is a congregation (the coward), choir (the band) and the preacher/god (the singer). The crowd gets all jazzed up, like Pentecostal churches. Maybe im a little bit of an iconoclasts, oh well. But there are a few bands i would run to go see if they got back together..... not naming those early 90's mid-hardcore scream/spazz/real emo bands. i don't want to look any lamer than i am.
Anyway back to my shoulder/bike. So my arm felt better today. I found a shoulder support for motocross racers. i thought about trying one.
Only bad thing is, when i blew my shoulder out bad the last time i rode a motocross bike. i was 23 and the blow out was worse due to the support. It caused me to hit a tree and then blow out my pcl in my knee. I didn't clear an 80ft triple jump..... There is a major difference now though. i'm riding a road motorcycle and i'm not jumping the damn bike crazy lengths. i'm not jumping at all. Anyway, i might be able to finish fixing my bike this week. A friend is going to help me. My forks are shot and i have to rebuild them. They were so rusted when i took them out of the bike, i had to beat them out with a wrench and hammer from the top. When they finally broke loss the wrench hit the speedometer and broke it. My luck huh?
The forks somewhat cleaned up, but there was major scaring on the tubes, so i played it safe and got new ones.i've also decided i'm still riding no matter how bad my shoulder is, even if i have to change the bars to a non cafe style old man set. i'm doing it even if i have to take pain killers after riding.
anyway lets hope the bike will look like this agian by next week.
like i said i have to fix this shoulder problem, it is hurting after sex. um, i mean it hurts to ride a bike..... um ok know you know the real reason, but that hasn't been um for while...um.......OKAY!.......hahaha
ok no sleep the last few nights have made me crazy. i don't want to sound like a person on coke or meth. so i'm stopping.
EDIT------------------------**************************************
i may have some hope.