MUSIC VOID
i've realized i haven't been playing music since june. It is funny, because i've been really depressed in the last 4 months. I've been at my mom's, so i haven't been playing anything. I still feel weird playing music with my mom around. I have an ipod but i dont use it.
Well things got bad about a week ago, real bad, and it was the lowest i've been in my life. No need to talk about those issues. Anyway, i started playing music again and well i feel better. I have no clue if i'm just tired of being depressed or it the music. i do know this.... i used music as a tool to feed aggression for progression, when i would freaked out about life. I used it in snowboarding. Every time i was scared shitless with a line or trick, i would blast my mp3 player (pre-ipod), get pissed, and go for it. I even used it in art school to get through art pieces that made me stay up 30+ hours to make.
i hate to say it, but i think all the video games are making me more depressed. I realized something. When i was younger, i played video games when i was injured from all the extreme sports (i hate that word). I wonder if i associate injury and the depressed feelings with video games? But i am stocked over the games coming out in the next few months.... left for dead, gears or war 2, fallout 3, dead space... even shawn white snowboarding (even though i'm not a fan of him).
Anyway, hopefully i will move out soon. That is prob the real problem. I'm stuck at my mom's house in the middle of nowhere. There is ton of baggage here..... sorry this is really lame and introverted....
Other stuff......
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i liked the graphic novel more than the video game
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http://www.vbs.tv/video.php?id=1817750835
i really liked this. i find it adorable. I know it might be a little creepy but come on it is Kern. It kinda reminds me a little of Ed Templeton and how he uses his wife in his art. I like when artist use their partners/girlfirends/women in general in their art (ina non sleaze way). I've always wanted to balls to pull off stuff like Kern and Templeton do with art. Everytime i fail. God i wish i could have finished that life size Aphrodite bobble head sculpture in school of my girlfriend at the time.... maybe one day
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thinking of something called Tourettes Palin. i hope i can pull this video off...
"OOOHHH, i think that the US Foreign PolSHSHSH SHIT! MOTHERFUCKER! ASSFUCK!"
i'm so going to piss my exteneded family off with this....
i've realized i haven't been playing music since june. It is funny, because i've been really depressed in the last 4 months. I've been at my mom's, so i haven't been playing anything. I still feel weird playing music with my mom around. I have an ipod but i dont use it.
Well things got bad about a week ago, real bad, and it was the lowest i've been in my life. No need to talk about those issues. Anyway, i started playing music again and well i feel better. I have no clue if i'm just tired of being depressed or it the music. i do know this.... i used music as a tool to feed aggression for progression, when i would freaked out about life. I used it in snowboarding. Every time i was scared shitless with a line or trick, i would blast my mp3 player (pre-ipod), get pissed, and go for it. I even used it in art school to get through art pieces that made me stay up 30+ hours to make.
i hate to say it, but i think all the video games are making me more depressed. I realized something. When i was younger, i played video games when i was injured from all the extreme sports (i hate that word). I wonder if i associate injury and the depressed feelings with video games? But i am stocked over the games coming out in the next few months.... left for dead, gears or war 2, fallout 3, dead space... even shawn white snowboarding (even though i'm not a fan of him).
Anyway, hopefully i will move out soon. That is prob the real problem. I'm stuck at my mom's house in the middle of nowhere. There is ton of baggage here..... sorry this is really lame and introverted....
Other stuff......
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i liked the graphic novel more than the video game
----------
http://www.vbs.tv/video.php?id=1817750835
i really liked this. i find it adorable. I know it might be a little creepy but come on it is Kern. It kinda reminds me a little of Ed Templeton and how he uses his wife in his art. I like when artist use their partners/girlfirends/women in general in their art (ina non sleaze way). I've always wanted to balls to pull off stuff like Kern and Templeton do with art. Everytime i fail. God i wish i could have finished that life size Aphrodite bobble head sculpture in school of my girlfriend at the time.... maybe one day
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thinking of something called Tourettes Palin. i hope i can pull this video off...
"OOOHHH, i think that the US Foreign PolSHSHSH SHIT! MOTHERFUCKER! ASSFUCK!"
i'm so going to piss my exteneded family off with this....
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frolic:
Thanks so much for the love on Sepulcher 
padre:
It is a pain, and the month only got weirder after this...