halfjack

it's like 7:30. or something. it's early. i had to wake up and get a ride down to work 40 minutes before my shift so i wouldn't get caught in traffic. i probably only got an hour of sleep last night. ok so this ain't that bad. thing is, in that one hour of sleep i had one of the most horrible dreams that i've ever remembered. see nightmares are nothing new for me, at all. but when it's an old recurring nightmare that i usually don't remember, mixed in with some fiction, and the key player in the memory's story switched with say, my lover, it shakes me. i woke up today shaking. i could barely even cry. i lay in bed unable to go back to sleep. i couldn't get some of the images out of my head.i just waited for my roomate to come and rush me. i can't stop shaking. i have to go down soon. i'll work til 6 and hate it and play the helpful barristo and get drunk and go home and not talk to the one person i want to call because we're fighting right now.

i hate it when days start out like this.



thanks for listening to me bitch. i'll be ok. just bored and venting i guess.

also, the answer was "the ghost of corperate future" by regina spektor. it's off of her soviet kirsch album and you should all own it. salud