haibane

The weather is grey, rainy & coldy as my mind.....
Yesterday evening sasuke was here again, we had some good time watching dvd and playing playstation...

I have the feeling everydays are near the same and i can't stop feeling very lonely; i suppose this is what peoples call a depression, but i'm not depressed, just very anxious: so much things depends on what will be my next moves...

Fuck even! i will cannot go to that dance show, my friend told me it was too expensive and i can agree with...

So what's stay for me? my dear friend in Canada is so far and very busy at these time: i can't speak with her like before online.

Sometimes i remember seing myself reading that fucking death advice letter, it seems for me my life stopped there at this time...She's dead and i can deal with that now but i'm still so sad

Against this morning i woke suddenly making again terrible nightmares: three day i make those, i wish it could stop too!

Well, maybe i'm blue:



Anyway, i thank you there for writing me: it's so nice to have friends there!

I like reading you! It's nice to know peoples think about you sometimes

~S~