Sad Constatations.....
Well, following a friend there told me about not knowing about myself, i'll tell you now a little more, but it's a hard and sad stories, i warn you
Where to begin? now maybe:
Present time:
It's been ten years now i'm alone, following a very active social life a while ago i'm desesperatly alone since ten years.
What happened to me?
I've been drugged (acid) a very long time ago, not undesrtanding the effects i've been closed in hospital for narcose (electrochoc). i've been tortured there, i say that because medical supplies and medecine not allowed me even to walk by myself, loosing my strenght and equilibrium.
I've been what i call "incarcered" in public hospital not allowed to go out, without anyone to hear me because on public side No one does his duties: you are there so you're a sick person...
I close this chapter even if there's more to say because there's worse:
I made besides this my proposal to my girlfriend i met since few years to do my life with...One week later she died committing suicide.
Of course i suffered again from this news, and mixed with others event i told before i drown myself in sadness since this time...
My last girlfriend(the next one) jumped from the sixth floor and miraculously stayed alive with one year of reeducation. And even if we just splitted this news affected me a lot again...
So i took refuge in myself, showing ressources i never supposed before and spent my life working the best i could...
Well, this is just a resume of what happend to me, thus now i'm very reserved socially, being perfectly sane of course (maybe you can doubt: i understand) I try living the rest of my life making now the right choices: but choice are limited when you loosed all what you have before including friend because they don't believed you.
By luck i made new friend, very few and i saw them occionnaly now, but now i have serious doubt in happiness, you can understand why...
I hope you're not chocked by this little resume of my life
, but i prefer write it than speak of it....
take care of yourselves
~S~
Well, following a friend there told me about not knowing about myself, i'll tell you now a little more, but it's a hard and sad stories, i warn you
Where to begin? now maybe:
Present time:
It's been ten years now i'm alone, following a very active social life a while ago i'm desesperatly alone since ten years.
What happened to me?
I've been drugged (acid) a very long time ago, not undesrtanding the effects i've been closed in hospital for narcose (electrochoc). i've been tortured there, i say that because medical supplies and medecine not allowed me even to walk by myself, loosing my strenght and equilibrium.
I've been what i call "incarcered" in public hospital not allowed to go out, without anyone to hear me because on public side No one does his duties: you are there so you're a sick person...
I close this chapter even if there's more to say because there's worse:
I made besides this my proposal to my girlfriend i met since few years to do my life with...One week later she died committing suicide.
Of course i suffered again from this news, and mixed with others event i told before i drown myself in sadness since this time...
My last girlfriend(the next one) jumped from the sixth floor and miraculously stayed alive with one year of reeducation. And even if we just splitted this news affected me a lot again...
So i took refuge in myself, showing ressources i never supposed before and spent my life working the best i could...
Well, this is just a resume of what happend to me, thus now i'm very reserved socially, being perfectly sane of course (maybe you can doubt: i understand) I try living the rest of my life making now the right choices: but choice are limited when you loosed all what you have before including friend because they don't believed you.
By luck i made new friend, very few and i saw them occionnaly now, but now i have serious doubt in happiness, you can understand why...
I hope you're not chocked by this little resume of my life
, but i prefer write it than speak of it....
take care of yourselves
~S~
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didn't you receive your picture yet? god, i'm sorry...maybe i forgot to send it out, i'm a bit lost since i don't know for sure whose pics i sent out and whose not!
merci pour le "joyeux anniversaire"...